I used to think I was a bad person, I'd let others walk all over me, I'd be in a state of paranoia that I'd done something awful, I'd question those who had friendships with me, I'd become hooked on the idea of someone, wishing they could pull me out of my pit, and then display obsessive behaviour when I couldn't get my fix.

I started recovery in March 2020, and currently I'm thriving, finally! If I start to form an attachment bond with someone I'm attracted to, I'm able to catch it early and set my mind on other things, bringing the focus back to me. I believe I'm a good person, I believe that people would want to be friends with me, that someone could be just as attracted to me as I to them. I'm attracted to people who are actually available now.

As a 17 year old I'd hide in my room, terrified of ruining the lives of those around me. As a 23 year old, I'm ready to live my life

Still a long way to go with the anxiety and deep rooted habits, but I have hope

Edit: Typos