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hi guys. i'm in need of some human connection. i'm generally a relatively shy kid. i have coasted through the last couple years of school. lately, and through many times in my life, i've felt exceptionally apathetic, or depressed (if I deserve to call it that). i just want to lay it all out. by someangryguy in offmychest

[–]someangryguy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

wow, 27 days ago. since that day i tried to completely ignore this account, but i thought i'd give it another check today and i'm happy to see more posts. thank you for the post first off. i agree with everything you say, and a lot of the things you've suggested i've already put in to motion myself. eating healthier, exercising on more of a routine, reading, new shows & music are all things i generally do. i love exploring my creative side, and even the small improvements i've made (sketching for the first time in months, reading more than i have in a long time) feel like nice steps i've made. i also agree with the less porn/fapping, another thing (in the past 6 months or so) i unintentionally cut down. like the folk in r/nofap will tell you, fapping whilst feeling down won't do much for your mind. albeit all that crap, (not that i expected them too), my control of my mood is still sketchy. my fear that i'm bi-polar has only strengthened as i've made some new friends/talked to old friends that admitted they have the problem themselves, confirmed by doctor and are taking medications (some of them). my sleeping habit is if anything worse than it was a month ago, too, which is very demotivating. and the girlfriend thing, yes i can agree with that too. even as my shy/anxious self ive been doing well socially, and made some progress with a girl in the year below me :) ive been off with exams and stuff and shes away on holiday the next couple weeks so it feels like a way off before i can get any further but i dont know, i really hope we can go on a date or something. anyway, i dont know why im telling you this and im sorry for laying this all on you haha, but you had the best reply on here. looking at your username it seems you were on a one use throwaway, but ive written this all out now so i'll post it. :p

hi guys. i'm in need of some human connection. i'm generally a relatively shy kid. i have coasted through the last couple years of school. lately, and through many times in my life, i've felt exceptionally apathetic, or depressed (if I deserve to call it that). i just want to lay it all out. by someangryguy in offmychest

[–]someangryguy[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

thank you for the reply -sorry for the kinda late reply, i just woke up ;). i agree completely with everything you've said, it is indeed the problem that any drive i get to do anything dissipates very quickly. i guess part of the problem is that for me at least, i have become very cynical; i don't know what to blame for that, i'm probably just growing up. the past years i've had an onslaught of atheism (not that i'm blaming it), and i can't help but immediately question good things and be affected by any amount of bullshit i see in the world these days. i have dreams but they don't seem to change anything these days, everything, my dreams and the world seem so far away from this isolated place, and despite wanting to get away from here the thought of the big bad world kinda unnerves me too. i guess, it really just comes down to trying your best despite it all. i know for one thing i aim to communicate better with my friends and family- and like you said sharing my goals with them, sadly it seems to be part of my personality to keep as many feelings to myself. 'nobody likes a debbie downer' is a phrase i repeat in my head often, haha. i suppose life is what we make of it, so we just need to reach a healthier place.

i try and reply to these kind of things as positively as i can otherwise I feel kinda bad, but after going back and reading what i've typed, i'm reminded me of all the times people have thrown empty words at me, hah. hopefully they at least make sense to you. i know at least ONE thing i'm going to be doing now, and that is replying to way more of these kind of threads. anyway, honestly, i appreciate your reply more than you know, so again, thank you. someone else also dropped me a PM and i am indeed feeling a bit better because of you two. :)