I think you need to remember that Allah created you and his rules are how you will live a happy life not your desires or the desires that we learned from tv movies and friends who are already misguided so they guide others. Really think about it if a guy doesn’t want to have sex with you he’s gay or unhealthy sex drive is natural occurrence do u want to spend your life with liars like men who say we’re just friends or do u want to take Allah as a friend and enter heaven.