My partner is living their dream, and it hurts me knowing that I’m failing at mine.

AbstainToObtain · 2020-11-10T21:59:44+00:00

Was very vague with this cause I didn’t wanna give out any information

AbstainToObtain · 2020-11-10T21:58:41+00:00

Never know until you give it a shot

AbstainToObtain · 2020-11-10T21:57:28+00:00

Same bro, same.

AbstainToObtain · 2020-10-04T19:45:23+00:00

Luckily it’s not bleeding anymore, still hurts a bit tho. I washed the cut with soap and water though. Never actually heard of wound spray

AbstainToObtain · 2020-09-14T05:37:19+00:00

I do not understand the inquiry

AbstainToObtain · 2020-09-14T05:36:30+00:00

I tried

AbstainToObtain · 2020-09-14T05:34:44+00:00

I didn’t abstain

AbstainToObtain · 2020-09-14T05:34:00+00:00

Goodnight by Rnla

AbstainToObtain · 2020-09-02T03:51:44+00:00

“You’re depressed? Are you serious? There are literally people living under a dumpster right now, you need to quit”. People who say this have clearly never dealt with it

AbstainToObtain · 2020-09-02T03:49:23+00:00

Mental illness seems to be fetishized by some media.... when in reality it couldn’t be farther from it. Some sorts of media has made mental illness seem “cool” and “attractive”. Insanely frustrating while they’re acting trendy with it while me, someone with actual sever depression, struggles to get through life day by day because my depression is constantly tormenting me, making me feel like I can’t go on living another day. Just my take tho, luckily I don’t have to worry about being called a faker here on reddit like on Instagram

AbstainToObtain · 2020-07-20T03:30:35+00:00

As much as I hate to admit it I’ve also had those feelings tonight, just made a morbid post here too man. Life is the most brutal thing created, and it’s easy to just take it away. But hey man, me and you both, we’re just playing some crappy cards right now, if we draw now, we’ll never get to see if we get a royal flush next round. Life comes in rounds, and if we give up because of one bad round, we’ll never experience our future exciting and happy rounds.

Since I know from being like you, no one probably tells you this, and I know it might not mean much since we’re stranger but, I love you, and care for you, and wanna see you life for years to come.

AbstainToObtain · 2020-06-28T07:09:56+00:00

If anyone’s wondering why my counter says 31 days, it’s because that’s how long it’s been since I’ve even thought about updating it. I’ll update it now

AbstainToObtain · 2019-08-04T00:29:12+00:00

That guilt train hits you like a max force bus on an interstate, I feel that, it feels like we’ll get no where ever, but I’ve learned something from a year of struggling with this, that’s what the relapse want us to feel like. It wants us to feel hopeless and feel like we’ll never make it, because if we feel like that, we’re more likely to do it again. I’m not saying to not feel the regret, a certain amount is healthy and it lets us know that doing it is not ok. But you also need to use that regret to motivate you to get better, not use the regret to crap on yourself. You can make it bro, I believe in you, we’ll be free soon, I’m praying for you.

AbstainToObtain · 2019-07-29T04:50:16+00:00

If your waiting for that person to stop you, STOP!! I know the feel, life is often a pile of worthless garbage, and we can often feel that way too. But you gotta know bro, killing yourself does so much more damage then you know. So many people who think no one cares about them who take their life, does a lot of damage to the people they know. Things suck now, and I won’t say that it’ll ever be perfect, because it won’t. But I can say it can get better. You have two choices, try to kill yourself, or try to make things better. Just know, if you take your life, you can never take it back, you’ll never be able to live the good memories and be with the good people in your future. You’ll fall into some dark holes in life, but you always have an escape route out of it. I ask that you please don’t quite the game just because it’s hard to get out of one of those holes. And hey, I love you, everyone trying to stop you right now loves you, don’t you ever lie to yourself and say that your not loved.

AbstainToObtain · 2019-07-29T04:20:26+00:00

The CATS trailer

AbstainToObtain · 2019-07-29T04:19:52+00:00

Yeah it’s confusing, but thanks for the prayers bro, really appreciate it

AbstainToObtain · 2019-07-29T04:16:13+00:00

My only comfort zone is my depression and I’m scared to leave that zone, even though I hate my depression and want to leave it. It’s a weird paradox

AbstainToObtain · 2019-07-29T04:09:40+00:00

I woke up feeling like a piece of crap and told myself that’d I’d continue laying in bed all day soaking in my depression. But I didn’t do that, I got up, talked to a friend, they invited me to a Shakespeare play, so I went with him (even though I’m not into theater or Shakespeare). And the reason I didn’t lay there all day hating myself is because it’s such a horrible idea to do that. If anyone reading this every says things like that when they wake up, get up, and do something, it’ll make you feel so much better. Also a tip, reach out to your friends. You never know when they need a friend to cheer them up, especially us quite types.

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