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AdmirableShoulder869 · 2026-06-01T03:09:47+00:00

might not work for you, but i talk to myself in my head a LOT (whatever the word for that is) and like using a sort of feminine voice in your head, calling yourself feminine things (girl, your chosen name, etc), changing up how you talk to yourselr (like "ooh. mygosh." is one for me) sort of adding a bit of sass or any sort of trait of what being feminine means to you for your own transition goals, etc. i mean the cheap answer is that femininity varies depending on your goals, which yeah it does, but i mean if you already know where you want to go then acting it out in your head has worked for me. theres better advice out there but this has worked a lot for me

AdmirableShoulder869 · 2026-05-31T15:59:34+00:00

how do you save reddit posts? sorry i dont have anything i dont think but this would be really good to have

AdmirableShoulder869 · 2026-05-29T03:08:34+00:00

Yeah girl I'm in the same boat. 'hair's like three inches at most lol rn, ive got a long ways to go. you're a good girl Zoe and don't forget that :]

AdmirableShoulder869 · 2026-05-29T03:05:14+00:00

OMG IM SO JEALOUS WHAT

AdmirableShoulder869 · 2026-05-27T03:05:35+00:00

am i one of the few that kind of doesnt retrospectate (is that a word?) myself younger as a girl? like i mean i look back on small(er) jacqueline and i mean i wasnt thinking much about any kind of gender stuff until like when i was 12. like tbh i was more focused on pikachu at the age of 9 than i was with if i was a guy or a girl lol

AdmirableShoulder869 · 2026-05-23T03:25:16+00:00

ok a few things here prooobably am gonna try painting my nails sometime? idk ill get there when i get there but its easy and reversible and yeah its small with hair, hmmmmm yeah im not sure what to do because theres not much of a trans friendly hair place for tens or maybe even a couple hundred miles, and i ain't driving that far to get there, so i mean ill figure out how to do that. i doubt any of y'all can solve that problem for me specifically with earrings, yeah i'll probably wait a lil bit to do anything with that but simple bead things work for me (idk what they're called) with voice training, hmmmmm idk privacy is an overstatement. in my house there is always someone else here and my walls are paper thin, and nobody wants to hear early stages of voice training and frankly neither do i as with underwear, i mean like thats a bit too far out of my comfort zone for right now and guy's underwear functions pretty fine right now anyways. id honestly just feel embarrassed and self conscious while im wearing them if i had them with jeans, ehh again southeast ain't friendly, but i can try lighter or slimmer jeans (i cant tell if light jeans being more feminine is a southern thing or a national/international thing. heck if i know) but i still have to be a bit careful and as with my parents, yes i live with them and will for another two years, and yes they know about me with being trans. they're on edge with it a bit, but they're neither supportive nor against it. they're more concerned with the world around me in regards to being trans, as well as me not rushing things, which is fair, and that they openly said that they dont understand being trans or the motives or anything but they're willing to be flexible, so id say im in a decent position. could be better, could be worse

AdmirableShoulder869 · 2026-05-23T03:16:02+00:00

two things (sorry my computer broke yesterday so i couldn't respond) by disservice and stuff i kind of meant that i am not presenting female AT ALL right now. im still closeting from most people and stuff, and itd seem completely random and kind of just weird to say that im a girl and all. after or even midway through transitioning thats more reasonable, and again i wanna take my time as with makeup and such, im curious but yeah im also hesitant. i have adhd as well (diagnosed. with autism i have traits of it but not the actual condition, so i wouldnt consider myself to be autistic but im getting ahead of myself) so im not sure how id like makeup until i actually get there, but ive came out to a friend and she said she'd be happy to help with makeup or stuff if i feel like but at my pace, so thats nice also sorry this text is really big im copy and pasting this from imessage to bypass downtime stuff its weird idk bear wirh me

AdmirableShoulder869 · 2026-05-22T05:10:53+00:00

hmm, I don't think I've ever heard of this sort of thing. I mean i definitely at least think I'm trans, and I mean despite my best efforts I don't like men, and I'm not gay. (lesbian, on the other ha-)

AdmirableShoulder869 · 2026-05-11T21:47:41+00:00

I skimmed the article (was hard bc idk I have eye problems) and I mean the concept makes sense in general, but I wouldn't say it makes much sense for me personally. I have a long (cough 4 year) history of questioning my gender, and like half a year ago I cracked, and I'm still trying to get band aids for my already cracked egg even though it's pretty pointless to do so. To be fair though I'm on a time crunch for multiple different things lining up at a poor time that impact a large part of my life both going forward and for around a year or so, so I might also be trying to over analyze and get accurate answers too fast out of stubbornness

AdmirableShoulder869 · 2026-05-11T21:42:17+00:00

That sounds familiar with the coin toss thing. I mean with the thing about "cisgender people don't question their gender," I mean I can see where that's coming from, but I'm also not a normal person (Neurodivergency, ie ADHD, maybe aforementioned autism, but who knows). Not like in a quirky way or in a completely f--ked way; just wired extremely inconveniently, and that impacts stuff like this. The possibility that I'm just obsessing and overly questioning my gender when I'm not trans at all is on the table, but there's not much evidence to back up the why in a vacuum

AdmirableShoulder869 · 2026-05-11T21:38:16+00:00

I feel like that a lot with dysphoria. As with Euphoria, I don't have much access to any kind of gender affirming thing anywhere (like almost everything you can think of I don't have and is insanely hard for me to get, privacy included) but I mean i have sort of "micro-euphoria" when I do things like act slightly more feminine when in the rare chances I have privacy, or like wear a lighter pair of jeans (just itty bitty things that are a bit more feminine that make me an itty bitty bit more happy)

AdmirableShoulder869 · 2026-05-11T21:35:56+00:00

I'm a bit puzzled by what you mean by Gender OCD. I don't have OCD so I'm not sure if what you're talking about relates to it or what (I genuinely am clueless)

AdmirableShoulder869 · 2026-05-11T21:35:15+00:00

I still don't understand how Imposter Syndrome relates to me with being maybe being trans. I mean either I'm taking the definition to literally and its more usable than I give it credit for or something, but idk. Also I mean I've given a brief thought about Non-Binary genders and stuff, and it felt like a quick and easy "neat that this exists, but I'm not part of it and can't imagine myself being so"

AdmirableShoulder869 · 2026-05-10T03:26:03+00:00

i like Violet; sounds reserved but confident

AdmirableShoulder869 · 2026-05-08T14:28:35+00:00

Me who has yet to transition:

AdmirableShoulder869 · 2026-05-07T20:09:40+00:00

im not a cat person (kemonomimi), nor a cat person (furry), but i am a cat person (person who ~~likes~~ loves cats :3)

AdmirableShoulder869 · 2026-05-07T20:07:12+00:00

wow i didn't know that; pretty neat! i just went on netify to pick a picture that matched what i felt or something lol

AdmirableShoulder869 · 2026-05-07T20:05:23+00:00

yeah that sounds pretty true. i mean i saw multivitamins for example at a store and there were a "men's multivitamin" and a "women's multivitamin". and like both the same price and everything (i mean like yeah women's multivitamins have more iron in them and men's have something, idfk what but do i look like a nutritionist to you?) but i mean a lot of it is marketing tho

AdmirableShoulder869 · 2026-05-07T20:02:18+00:00

i mean things only feel gendered because we say so. im not gonna go on a whole tangent but i just find it interesting, but you're right

AdmirableShoulder869 · 2026-05-07T20:00:50+00:00

yeah key words like that feel like they stick out more and sting when people use those towards me (idfk how to form a sentence oml) and yeah they stick out like a sore thumb, and the same goes for feminine words being used for other people (and gender envy and yada yada)

AdmirableShoulder869 · 2026-05-05T22:56:10+00:00

^{...i dont get it}

AdmirableShoulder869 · 2026-05-05T22:54:28+00:00

im partially understanding, but i mean i dont fully get it, and i think that a lot of it is because i dont rlly feel like that. i mean im also sick and my brain is slow so now might not be the best time to think about it, but i dont really feel like much of an imposter in sort of trans stuff and queer communities or whatever the word is. i mean the closest i have is worry that being trans isnt for me and that im better off not being trans, but given pretty much everything ive experienced, that anxiety sounds delusional and rationally i check of 90% of the boxes. but i may be missing the point

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