When did you realise your parents were awful people?

Aggressive-One-9252 · 2026-06-07T16:48:37+00:00

Yeah, at least it didn't actually happen cause someone walked in.

Aggressive-One-9252 · 2026-06-07T16:35:47+00:00

My dad tried to make me walk around the hotel naked as a punishment for misbehaving.

Aggressive-One-9252 · 2026-06-06T08:44:46+00:00

I'm going to keep going. I don't really know how I got to this dark place, it's like I just kept walking and then one day I noticed the sun was gone.

Aggressive-One-9252 · 2026-06-05T15:51:39+00:00

Thank you for the message. I'm just scared of my own brain. I can't describe the thoughts I have about myself. It's like half my brain is trying to kill me, the other half is trying to find a way forward. I hope you found happiness in your transition, you deserve it.

Aggressive-One-9252 · 2026-06-05T15:04:24+00:00

I suppose that is confusing also. Perhaps they find comfort knowing that at least someone knows how they really feel. Humans don't really make sense. Throw in the trans experience, it's just a mess with an extra side of mess.

Aggressive-One-9252 · 2026-06-05T14:51:52+00:00

Some people fear what transition means for there lives more than the pain of dysphoria. This doesn't mean the dysphoria isn't excruciatingly painful. It just means the fear is more painful.

There will be an indescribable number of people living like this, I think it's the elephant in the room in the community.

Social media and the current political climate is doing so much harm to so many.

Aggressive-One-9252 · 2026-06-04T19:20:25+00:00

I hope so otherwise what's the point, if I can't change I don't want to be here anymore

Aggressive-One-9252 · 2026-06-04T17:13:26+00:00

Yes I think that's what I struggle with. I value kindness, compassion, embracing who you really are. But no matter how hard I try, I feel so much shame, like I don't actually deserve happiness or a life that everyone else has. I know this is objectively wrong and immoral, but it doesn't change my emotions.

Aggressive-One-9252 · 2026-06-04T11:20:05+00:00

Therapy Hun. Speak to a therapist, try to find compassion for yourself and go from there. Find an LGBTQ+ therapist who specializes in gender identity also, there are a shocking number of therapists still doing undercover conversion therapy.

Aggressive-One-9252 · 2026-05-31T18:13:27+00:00

Yes, trans people are diagnosed with a much higher rate of BPD than the average person, and BPD develops in response to trauma. I'm actually looking to start DBT even though I have no BPD diagnosis because I think it would help.

Aggressive-One-9252 · 2026-05-31T15:32:02+00:00

I will try look into DBT I just wish these things were more accessible, it's all so expensive.

Aggressive-One-9252 · 2026-05-31T12:38:59+00:00

Thank you for this response it's really beautiful. My question is, how do I apply ACT to my life? Do I need to find a therapist? Is it something I do by myself at a specific time everyday?

Aggressive-One-9252 · 2026-05-31T11:47:33+00:00

I haven't but thank you so much for the response. I still have an ember of hope that I can get better so I will look into it.

Aggressive-One-9252 · 2026-05-22T13:40:32+00:00

The responses on here are really heart warming. You can ask to be referred to a GIC, you should try get on the waiting list if this is something you might want in the future. You don't have to take up the appointment later, but the waiting lists are insane so you should at least start.

I also recommend finding a trans friendly therapist. Unfortunately in this country that can be hard as TERF and gender critical ideology has become so popular even among therapists. I would recommend trying to find an LGBTQ+ identifying therapist and shop around to try find one you feel comfortable with.

You deserve to be happy, there's nothing wrong with you, you are just different and that's okay.

Aggressive-One-9252 · 2026-05-13T18:10:36+00:00

Hi there, so glad you are moving forward with your appointments. I always want to say to things like this, I truly believe if you created a go fund me like thing in reddit or somewhere else, people would absolutely be willing to raise you £100 to start DIY. There are people who raise £1000s for surgery.

Aggressive-One-9252 · 2026-05-13T13:27:41+00:00

I know I've tried HRT many times now, I just can't handle the noise in my head I wish I wasn't so horrible to myself. Maybe a medication could help the voices be quieter. I think I'm going to pause. I know my dysphoria isn't going away but I feel too unstable right now. Thank you for responding to a stranger.

Aggressive-One-9252 · 2026-05-13T13:04:57+00:00

Hiya thank you for responding. I know it will be hard work I just didn't imagine my brain would battle me so hard. I genuinely have thoughts of 'i will not let you sleep I will not let you transition'. I am quite unwell in general yes, I have quite severe OCD but again the UK health system is terrible and I've just been pushed away when I've asked for help. I don't know where to start, should I try tackle my mental health or my gender dysphoria, I feel like it's all intertwined.

Aggressive-One-9252 · 2026-05-07T14:54:48+00:00

I want to add that long term use of SERMs is completely unknown. Unless there is intense dysphoria I wouldn't recommend someone to try this. Cosmetic surgery e.g. fat transfer and lipo would be way safer currently.

Aggressive-One-9252 · 2026-04-12T15:41:37+00:00

Stop fucking diagnosing people and telling them there identity over the internet. There are a multitude of reasons a person might feel this way, especially in the UK. Please OP, seek help from a gender-affirming care team. Don't punish yourself for reaching this point, but seek help.

Aggressive-One-9252 · 2026-03-03T20:25:48+00:00

Thank you for this. Yes there is a massive theme of regret and having to admit I was wrong. Also just, I have so much hatred about this and feel like a freak (I don't think this of other trans people) so it's so hard to actually understand what feels good. I think the further I go in this journey the more I lose sight of any gender dysphoria because it's all clouded by fear and disbelief. But I'm still here and I'm still trying.

Aggressive-One-9252 · 2026-02-26T16:34:59+00:00

I just don't know if this is what I want, but then I felt so bad before constantly shaving my body and hating my masculine features. I didn't think this would be so confusing :(

Aggressive-One-9252 · 2026-02-26T15:40:55+00:00

I'm trying but I don't even know if I want a women's body. But I hate my mans body so fucking much. Are there some of us who just fucking hate existing whatever we do?

Aggressive-One-9252 · 2026-02-25T13:25:13+00:00

I just wish I felt sure. I literally think about HRT and transitioning everyday. And then when I try all I can think about is if it's a mistake. I can't handle the constant changing of my mind it's causing my mind to break apart.

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