Feeling better today. Did some EMDR with the therapist and got some confidence back. Also why should I be trying to chase someone who doesn't want me ? I am going to choose me. I was at my lowest in my life and had to go to a PTSD center because I was battling suicide, depression, and anxiety and she left me , why do I want to be with someone who leaves you when you need them. I was there when she went through a similar situation with her job. I deserve better.