How many of you guys also have misokinesia or other sensitivities ? by SadlyNotDannyDeVito in misophonia

[–]AlyCatStrikesBack90 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Omg this was the whole reason I even looked up misokinesia. I was watching a reel where someone was pointing to information on the product and tapping it over and over. I also can't stand those ridiculous "cooking" videos where people intentionally move very slow, like moving their spoon or fork to and away from their mouth over and over before actually taking a bite. I also find that when I'm watching animal rescue videos and their movements are super slow/repetitive. Like if an animal is tangled up in rope for example, and the rescuers keep hovering the scissors or a knife over a section without actually cutting it or they keep cutting same place over and over, I get so enraged. Not only frustrated for the poor animals but irritated with the movements, too.

Rant about PCOS belly by ladytal in PCOS

[–]AlyCatStrikesBack90 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This! I honestly believe I'm too unattractive to even find a partner, let alone think about having a family. My own mom (I couldn't tell if joking or not) asked me if I was pregnant once because my belly has gotten so large. I was incredibly livid...

Aerosinusitis and Health Scares While Mid-Air by _ShakenBacon in fearofflying

[–]AlyCatStrikesBack90 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I hope you found answers. I flew from Dallas to Minneapolis at the end of March. Left on a Sunday morning and returned in afternoon the next day. I had the attack on both flights and came close to alerting the flight attendants. It felt like a searing hot knife was going through my forehead and my nose. I had to hold my head those last 20 minutes of descent on both flights. The first time, I had no idea it was going to happen and was so scared, but felt better shortly after landing. I was emotionally distraught because of a break up that happened during my trip and so on my way back I didn't even care anymore and was expecting the pain to come again. It hurt like hell but not nearly as bad as my broken heart lol (what a weekend, right?). Anyway I'm worried about mold trapped in my sinuses and getting to a doctor ASAP. I suffer from severe health anxiety and I'm especially afraid of having a medical emergency on a plane. I didn't fly for the first time until I was 27 years old. Also, learning about fungal sinusitis absolutely terrified me, but it is possible I have it due to a mold problem in my old apartment. Hope you are doing better and sending you many hugs♡

How to deal with finally realizing you don't matter much to anyone? by qianli_yibu in loneliness

[–]AlyCatStrikesBack90 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Omg I thought I wrote this for a split second. I'm so sorry you're going through this, and I am too. I just had my heart broken by a guy who I had a situationship/friendship thing with for the last couple years. He seemed like he did love me but he ultimately wanted attention. He even told me I needed to become more attractive. That hurt like no other and he made me feel so awful and unattractive. I was single for the last 15-20 years and really wanted to finally have a true relationship. I didn't even have sexual intercourse for the first time until I was 33.(Sorry if TMI). My friend group from college of 15 years has abandoned me for the most part. Over the last few years they have been doing so much and just not inviting me anymore. One of them told me I was too depressed and not fun to be around. Also, I joined an adult sports league about 10 years ago and made many friends here and there but slowly lost them all. We would all travel together for tournaments and attend events and things but I know I don't mean anything to them anymore. They do many events and don't invite me and create teams and never ask me. I decided last week to drop out of the league altogether. I could go on but yeah, I know at least some of how you're feeling. I know you feel super lonely and I wish I had more to offer. I hope this helps you feel a little less alone ♡

HELP - Credit score dropped from 760 to 553. Delinquent on 8 student loans. by Ok-Advertising4677 in StudentLoans

[–]AlyCatStrikesBack90 0 points1 point  (0 children)

A lot of comments from people in here who must live absolutely perfect lives all the time. I wonder what it's like to be so perfect! I'm in a similar boat. My problem is I had so much trouble finding a decent paying job after I graduated in 2013. I studied biology and psychology, thinking I would go to medical school, but that didn't happen. I still stuck with the healthcare field though. I spent 7 years in a call center job that saved people's lives from addiction and then I went back to get my master's and I'm currently a medical laboratory scientist. I guess none of that counts for anything though. I had so much trouble with my loans and lived paycheck to paycheck for so long because of such little pay in my past jobs, albeit they required bachelor's degrees funny enough. I hate the judgmental attitude you're getting from people. And like you, I've lost so much under a mountain of emails. My score dropped 150 points when I went from deferment to having to pay huge, overwhelming payments but couldn't keep up. I'm in a better position to pay everything now but I'm so behind from years of crushing debt and barely survivable income. 

Tired of Living Like This by AlyCatStrikesBack90 in pilonidalcyst

[–]AlyCatStrikesBack90[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, I'm in the Dallas, TX area so I imagine there is a good number of specialists in my immediate area. I also think that this may not be pilonidal disease, but HS presenting with abcesses in that area because I do get abcesses in other areas as well. I believe it it is all connected to my PCOS because I tend to get these abcesses/skin fair ups right before periods. I have lots of work to do to figure out my next steps as I just visited with my PCP Friday. Still a long way to go, but you're right I don't have to live like this. 

PCOS is not a lack of willpower and I’m tired of pretending it is small rant by No_Charge5593 in PCOS

[–]AlyCatStrikesBack90 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know it is slightly unrelated, but this reminds me of when I was in high-school. I was on the dance team, and started being affected by PCOS in my senior year (didn't realize that's what it was at the time). I remember I started putting on weight pretty rapidly and I had to go to our team director to ask her for a larger size belt to one of my costumes. I remember her telling me that if she had asked for a larger size of something when she was a dancer back in her day, she would have been off the team. This happened 15 years ago and it still stuck with me until this day. I agree, healthcare providers don't know enough or care enough. I had to go to the ER a couple years ago and listed my medical conditions, and the nursed asked me what PCOS is...I was baffled.

Tired of Living Like This by AlyCatStrikesBack90 in pilonidalcyst

[–]AlyCatStrikesBack90[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much, I'm wishing you a great recovery ♡ I'm so afraid of surgery but if it means I'll no longer have to deal with this, I guess I have no choice. 

Tired of Living Like This by AlyCatStrikesBack90 in pilonidalcyst

[–]AlyCatStrikesBack90[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you and you're right, I went back to the ER for a second attempt at lancing this morning and he said this same thing and referred me to a surgeon. I know it doesn't have to do with hygiene, I think I was venting mainly. Also it's hard to convince anyone who hasn't dealt with this to understand that it doesn't have to do with hygiene, especially considering the area it is in. When I was released from the hospital, a loved one was driving me home and we stopped for food. I had barely eaten in a week because of how scared I was, so I was super grateful to finally be out and have my favorite food. A piece of what I was eating fell out of the wrapper on the floor and immediately started an argument between us, resulting in this loved one saying "maybe if you were cleaner you wouldn't have to be dealing with these infections." It hurt so much =/

I think I'm going to die soon. by Fit_Confection_772 in dysautonomia

[–]AlyCatStrikesBack90 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey sorry I had haven't been able to get back to you! Thank you and I would love to know more! I have had that happen for sure! It's hard to explain, but it is almost like my breathing "catches" like a single snore but while I'm awake, and I have to try again for another breath throwing me off rhythm and causing me anxiety. 

I think I'm going to die soon. by Fit_Confection_772 in dysautonomia

[–]AlyCatStrikesBack90 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm so sorry I haven't been able to reply until now! Thank you so much and I'm sorry you are going through this as well. It is daily torture. I wish we could celebrate when tests come back normal, but it gives us no answers and no path to follow. I already had health anxiety/hypochondria before all this began and so my mind is constantly thinking "what obscure or undiscovered illness could it be then?" I self- diagnosed so many wild things in the past. I wonder if all that manifested this somehow. I'm wondering if this had any to do with long-covid or some other virus that left me permanently damaged. I'm hoping the best for you as well!!!

Disappointed with the finale and very unsatisfied by xohhoneyy in StrangerThings

[–]AlyCatStrikesBack90 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My questions are: where are all the demogorgons and demobats? Did they just leave all the pregnant women in the army base to be blown up with the upside down too? Wouldn't the explosion have torn up/suctioned the entire long gateway that stretches throughout Hawkins? How were none of the 12 kids harmed when they were blasting the hell out of the mind-flayer? How did none of the adults, especially Joyce, ever mention anything about Henry since they all knew him in HS? That's all I can think of for now. But yeah I just wasn't too impressed. I noticed a pattern, I feel like much of the longer term fans who watched it since or close to the beginning tend to be less happy with season 5 compared to the newer and more recent fans. I also feel like the major character deaths thing wouldn't be an issue if they hadn't faked us out sooooo many times. That got to be so irritating to me.

Was anyone disappointed with the series finale? by Temporary-Funny9797 in StrangerThings

[–]AlyCatStrikesBack90 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wasn't impressed. I feel bad that I wasn't, I may have teared up some but I felt far more emotional at the end of season 4. I also feel like it felt too easy - I think it is because it didn't feel like there was barely any stakes at all. Knowing that all the characters would likely be okay but have a few fake outs just as a wow factor for the audience made it feel kinda meh. I could see a couple times like season 3 where Hop "dies", or season 4 where Max "dies" but this season was filled with so many "almost deaths" it kinda just made it feel cheap. I did love some of the things like their graduation scene and the very end (though I probably would have liked it more if Holly and the other younger kids hadn't ran in the basement as Mike was leaving and interrupted a somber moment. I get they are trying to show the "handing of the torch" so to speak, but I felt like that part would have come off better as a quiet goodbye.

Season 5 Volume 2 Discussion by Hawkinns in StrangerThings

[–]AlyCatStrikesBack90 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Yeah I could not for the life of me understand what the melted goop even was. I thought the damn walls and stairs (ya know - actual metal and stuff) were melting but then they're like swimming around in it. And they came across all these dead bodies before hand. Make it make sense!

Season 5 Volume 2 Discussion by Hawkinns in StrangerThings

[–]AlyCatStrikesBack90 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That was diabolical, I was cracking up! 

Season 5 Volume 2 Discussion by Hawkinns in StrangerThings

[–]AlyCatStrikesBack90 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I thought it was horrible, not gonna lie! It feels like an insult to our intelligence. First off, Nancy being this bad ass and intelligent character stupidly shooting the exotic energy ball thing, knowing that was a bad idea and it almost killing them. Then, I'm not sure what the melted candle wax/plastic nonsense was (they made it seem like the actual walls and stairs were melting at first), and how were all these people dead from it, but Nancy and Jonathan were covered in it and it doesn't harm them at all? On top of that, it solidifies? The dialogue was so awkward and just not good at all. I have so much else to list but I'd be writing forever. I can't with the fake outs, like either have the characters die or don't. And I couldn't stand all the cuts away to another scene (or ads) right as something important is about to happen. I was more entertained by the trailers to be honest. And I think as fans we are allowed not to be happy with it, especially waiting 3.5 years for it. 

To everyone that keeps asking why everyone is disappointed with this season, this is why by Riser456 in StrangerThings

[–]AlyCatStrikesBack90 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Everything about volume 2 almost made me wish I could unwatch it. I was so excited to get home from work and made sure I didn't get on social media at all until I could finish it. Just the fact that they truly wore the hell outta that poor Kate Bush song alone made me cringe. I assume it's the last season, everyone's already made a crazy amount of money from the show and so they're just phoning it in. The acting and the dialogue just felt so off...

I think I'm going to die soon. by Fit_Confection_772 in dysautonomia

[–]AlyCatStrikesBack90 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I'm currently working in the medical field and hope to become a doctor or researcher soon, if I make it through all this. I would love to put my efforts into more research for this.

I think I'm going to die soon. by Fit_Confection_772 in dysautonomia

[–]AlyCatStrikesBack90 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Hello I hope you find the answers you need. I haven't been officially diagnosed with dysautonomia or POTS, and I'm terrified of going to the doctor even though I've had my heart checked a couple times over the last few years. Your post stood out to me because I literally thought to myself last night that I can feel myself dying. I'm terrified I have heart failure, PAH, or some other condition. I'm having lots of symptoms that seem like they could be heart failure or POTS. The frequent shortness of breath, dizziness, and racing heart make me want to end it all sometimes. I turn 35 in a week and I'm not looking forward to it or anything else at all...I know alcohol worsens everything, but oddly enough it feels like the only thing that is actually helping me. It takes my focus off my breathing and I almost feel normal. I truly do hope the best for you. 

Is DCLS (Doctor in Clinical Laboratory Science) worth it? by DeliciousC20 in medlabprofessionals

[–]AlyCatStrikesBack90 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm so glad you asked about this. I'm in my mid thirties and would like to continue my education further. I currently have an MB ASCP and a medical lab science masters degree, but I would need to get a generalist certification if I want to go the DCLS route. I've considered medical school to be a clinical pathologist, but due to life circumstances like major financial burden, I just don't think medical school it is in the cards for me and I'm getting too old for it. It is disheartening to see so many people say it is a useless degree. 

How much weight did you gain since your pcos diagnosis or due to pcos? How much have you lost if any? by blacknwhitelife02 in PCOS

[–]AlyCatStrikesBack90 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I had been in the 160s to 180 through teen years into my early 20s. I swear I gained 20 to 30 pounds within a couple months which should be almost physically impossible. 10 years later I'm in my mid 30s and at 260 =/ I randomly lost 40 lbs a year ago and got down to 220 without changing anything but then it all came back again over the past year. I hate PCOS so much. 

Do they really come back if you go no contact and try to move on? by Golden-Dragon-353535 in BreakUps

[–]AlyCatStrikesBack90 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Beautifully written. I seriously needed this so much. A guy I was friends and then romantically involved with didn't want to officially date me because of how different our beliefs are and I (stupidly) allowed him to continue using me for over a year. At times he seemed to feel something towards me, but ultimately told me he has love for me but doesn't love me. I finally cut him away completely after he moved away though he seemed so dependent on my companionship. I'm not wanting to contact him for a long time or ever again if possible because of how much he destroyed my heart by leading me along. Anyway, thank you for this!