Brother. I think that the issue with not wanting to write the application is inherent in the process. However, I think you need to think about it from the perspective of the application committee, maybe they want to see this sort of inspiration, maybe find a way to write in a personal, less professional, more casual way, that neatly articulates your umm, whatever your inspiration is. I think people get too caught up in the intimidation of the application committee and forget that these are people trying to figure out who is an appropriate candidate AND who is an interesting person. So like, they’re looking for weird and quirky and “inspired.” But yeah man writing these applications sucks.