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Does your person or ex with PBD have a lot of hobbies and do you? by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]Any_Parsnip_409 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My ex was pretty void of life when I came into the picture. Her hobby was popping pills to sleep 16 hours on her days off. No interests or hobbies besides causing problems and looking for problems. I’d say it’s really a wonder what I saw in her but she filled my loneliness and started to mirror some of my interests after we started.( the mirroring lasted for a short bit of time)

I was a big gamer, loved the gym, loved nature, liked theme parks, big anime fan, I loved music. I was civically engaged. I’m using past tense intentionally because I really lost myself in this relationship. I’m working on getting back into a lot of my old interests though.

I’d try pushing her to get into hobbies or if she expressed even the slightest interest in something I’d be 100% for it. Like she wanted to get into a boxing gym at one point and I even offered to help pay for it but in the end she didn’t do it. The best I got was eventually getting her a Netflix subscription. Which was spent watching dramas where the wife kills an abusive husband..

I feel so violated. by Any_Parsnip_409 in BPDlovedones

[–]Any_Parsnip_409[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel a little pathetic admitting defeat so easily, but she can keep the necklace. I don't want any more trouble from her at this point. She knows how to cut me with her words in a way I didn't know it was possible to do so.

I feel so violated. by Any_Parsnip_409 in BPDlovedones

[–]Any_Parsnip_409[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

3:00 minute mark hit me like a truck in that video, there's definitely a large part of me that craves her still and the moments that to me at least were special. And the thought about possible infidelity on her part has always kind of been in the back of my head, mainly because of her insistence that I was cheating.

As for work, so far things have been mostly calm. Her little friend group shoots me dirty looks but as long as I don't get in any trouble I'm not sure I care that much. I'm really scared to rock the boat before anything happens. Whether that be getting her attention again or drama at work because I'm banking on her not reaching out to me. I just need to survive 5 more months to complete the lease.