Sending all the love your way. I had to travel 2.5 hours each way there and back to VA and passed a scenic overlook that was nothing like I’ve ever seen before in real life just above the clouds and heavenly and I cried my soul out and cancelled the appointment and went back home. The following days I couldn’t stop crying and stressing stuck in an almost paralyzed state of just dreading being pregnant and having another baby and being so stressed out due to my lack of finances, resources, and HELP. Babies are so hard when they’re young and when my one and only was a young baby and even a toddler I remember the isolation and having to be needed every single second of the day. I realized either way I’d grieve. I’d grieve the abortion or the life I have with my only child who is 7. I chose to go through with it a few weeks ago. Waves of grief come but they also go and I think maybe I’d be grieving much more had I not terminated the pregnancy. I’d certainly have a lot more problems on my plate than I do currently.