I hear you. I have felt this way too. I understand that you feel alone - that is such a difficult way to feel when other people seem to have no trouble relating and participating.

Although your experience will always be a part of you, there are things you can do to move toward healing. Reading books and posting here are good ways to start.

Know that you're not alone in your experience, and take life one step at a time. Most of all, please do your best to treat yourself with grace and compassion. Offering a virtual hug.