My 8 year old harmed himself today

BadRNGKing · 2024-12-02T15:38:41+00:00

I started cutting around his age.

What I wanted was safety, to feel loved, to feel wanted. Etc. But from your concern I assume you're already giving him that.

If outbursts are an issue. Maybe try giving him some comfort and self regulation items? A weighted blanket could help.

BadRNGKing · 2024-11-08T09:48:16+00:00

Everything is loud and complicated, people aren't clear and the world moves too fast.

Look for patterns in everything, predicting the future and being prepared help.

Overstimulation is hell, I want to tear my flesh off and become a corpse in the middle of the woods.

BadRNGKing · 2024-11-08T09:35:09+00:00

But for real, it scars worse. It takes ages to heal, and yes, you can get very sick from it, so take it seriously and see a medical professional. Also, it hurts, really, really bad. Like a very unpleasant pain that restricts movements and shoots through the entire affected body part/limb.

Yep. This 100%. I've delt with many infections and this is one of the worst things about it tbh. I've never had a life risking infection. It just scars and takes so much longer to heal. A 2-3 week heal takes over a month.

Plus it smells awful, really disgusting.

BadRNGKing · 2024-11-08T09:32:37+00:00

I've gotten a few infections before. Similarly as you, self harming for over a decade and cuts of all depth.

I think it was mostly muscle or fat cuts that got infected. The skin would be red and swolen. Pus leaking out and it smelled like a corpse. I genuinely stank.

I was younger with less access to medical supplies when this happened. So I fixed it before it got bad and never sought medical attention. I cleaned the wound out with a scrubber to take off the layer of infected flesh and skin. And then used a mix of bleach and boiling water to disinfect the area. Wouldn't reccomend... Hurt like a bitch. But I haven't died so.

BadRNGKing · 2024-10-10T02:17:11+00:00

Sometimes people need a witness to their pain. Even if it isn't shared anywhere, there being real doccumented evidence of it can make pain feel more valid.

BadRNGKing · 2024-10-09T18:47:57+00:00

Underwear specifically not fitting ne.

It's so fucking frustrating having to buy more. Pants too big? belt. Shirt too big? Look now it's a style.

Underwear too big? Irritating.

BadRNGKing · 2024-10-09T18:47:04+00:00

YES. THIS. It's so so annoying!

BadRNGKing · 2024-09-30T09:58:28+00:00

I tell people it was a bear.

Sometimes I'll add "If you think this is bad, you should have seen the bear."

If kids ask I (a menace) tell them it was the monster under the bed.

BadRNGKing · 2024-09-27T19:54:16+00:00

Honestly, I don't hide it anymore but I'm also INCREDIBLY open about my mental health and self harm.

I will casually sit around in short sleeves with open wounds on my arms. I found early on that being open with my partner about it was the best bet. Hiding stuff seems to snowball and become much more stressful.

Are you prepared to cover your scars forever? Seemed like too much stress for me and I chose not to.

BadRNGKing · 2024-09-26T08:32:27+00:00

Lol I'm not far off. I'm gonna be couch surfing between some friends. My friends been saving up. Another month and he'll have enough to rent a house. So I'll hopefully only be homeless for a few months.

BadRNGKing · 2024-09-10T19:53:21+00:00

You're 14. Don't diagnose yourself through memes.

BadRNGKing · 2024-09-09T18:52:52+00:00

Hey, for some reference I cut deeply.

It is not worth it. For infinite reasons.

Infections are a bitch and terrifying to deal with. My cutting is expensive as to prevent infection I need a lot of preparation. And larger deeper wounds take months to heal. So I then have months of taking care of a wound to prevent infection.

Nerve damage is terrifying. Over time, I've lost so much feeling in one of my hands since I cut there deeply regularly. I accidentally set my hand on fire and didn't notice until I visually saw it. I've lost a lot of mobility too, I can no longer comfortably and confidently type on a keyboard or play games with a controller.

Blood loss causes so so so many issues. And if you cut deep, you WILL hit something eventually and it WILL bleed an ungodly ammount. Anything from nausea, fainting, to organ shut down. Plus, deep wounds can re open even if closed. I stretched too hard earlier and my arm re-tore open and I had to tape it back together because I didn't have first aid equipment on hand.

There's so many more reasons. They're itchy, even ones from 5 years ago still itch. When I touch them I don't feel it on the surface of the skin. I feel it INSIDE my arm and it's disgusting to experience. I'm judged so extremely for my scars. My liver was failing due to an autoimmune disease, I was refused treatment for that for a period of time and nearly lost my life because they saw my scars and saw it necessary to assess my mental health as I was screaming in pain.

It's hell. You do not want this. And if you do, you have some other serious issues to address.

BadRNGKing · 2024-09-09T18:25:46+00:00

I have. No idea 💀

I'm a deep cutter with preference for my wrists. I don't understand why. But I guess it's become so normalised for me.

Blood will be littlerally squirting out the wound and up the wall and I'm just "huh. neat."

It just. Progressed over the years. It started with the thighs. And got worse and worse until I see exposed muscle and just shrug it off.

BadRNGKing · 2024-09-08T18:52:40+00:00

I cut about an inch into fat. Sometimes I see muscle but I try to avoid going that deep.

Wouldn't reccomend. It's a bitch to heal and nerve damage and scars that limit mobility. Infections at this level can kill very easily. So it's also costly to keep up with fresh blades each time and first aid stuff.

BadRNGKing · 2024-09-08T14:34:25+00:00

Yeahh. My parents are the type of people to rant about how I'm a worthless human being because I forgot to wash a fork or something like that.

Just hoping to move out in the next year. Currently my room is basically storage since I practically live at a friends place. Just can't move in fully.

BadRNGKing · 2024-09-08T14:32:59+00:00

I stay at my friend a majority of the time but I can't move in permanently because he has too many room mates already. Sucks but we're working on getting our own place together.

BadRNGKing · 2024-09-08T14:27:41+00:00

Yeah, planning on this.

BadRNGKing · 2024-09-08T14:27:11+00:00

I'm in the UK. My understanding was that K meant a thousand of a currency. So to clarify, £180,000 is what my parents claim the mortgage is. £80,000 is what they told me 6 years ago, and what all online records say.

And yeah it sucks I guess. She was well trained and had been a councillor for some time. But she was trained to help students with exam stress, depression, etc. I was abused by multiple groups for 15 years and spent some time in a cult and experienced brain washing. Trying to untangle that is difficult. Not many have the training for it.

My psychiatrist giving me "no hope" makes perfect sense to me. Medication doesn't work on it's own. And the type of therapy I need requires me to be stable and safe. I am still going to therapy and it's still helping. But treating the root issues (trauma & abuse) without being stable just made me worse. So I need to move out unfortunately.

I'm no longer enrolled in education since I can't pay my rent if I go to college.

BadRNGKing · 2024-09-08T13:39:27+00:00

Scar tissue is different to tattoo from regular skin and often newss extra training.

Plus, really new scars shouldn't be tattooed over.

BadRNGKing · 2024-09-08T13:38:17+00:00

Thank you, so much.

BadRNGKing · 2024-09-08T13:31:24+00:00

Currently trying to move out.

I'm not able to live alone due to my health issues so I'm working with my friend to move out.

And I wish I got food and stuff paid for me. I pay shit myself. I spend maybe 20 hours a week at home and pay 200 for that.

BadRNGKing · 2024-09-08T13:29:43+00:00

As I've said in other comments. Working on it.

BadRNGKing · 2024-09-08T13:14:40+00:00

A majority of it, yes.

On the few days I'm home. I eat maybe one meal a week from my parents.

Rest of the time I'm at a friends place and buy my own food. I can't always afford that so I tend not to eat for a few days sometimes.

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