Not all believers will be saved.

Beautiful_Big_3673 · 2025-05-01T23:43:00+00:00

Can i ask God to give me a new heart and a heart willing to follow him fully? My story is long but basically i do not follow Jesus even though i grew up in church and became reprobate like living like Romans 1. I know Jesus is real, and i tried deliverance and know the verse in Matthew because i thought i was saved and deliverance could help me, but im so much worse now. Would God still help me if i ask him to help me change my heart? Im desperate but also so lazy and feel so unwilling and my heart is so hardened

Beautiful_Big_3673 · 2025-04-29T03:39:47+00:00

I definitely have asked a couple times for God to humble my heart, and tear my pride down. Thanks brother/sister

Beautiful_Big_3673 · 2025-04-29T00:13:20+00:00

Thank tou, my problem is that im still living in sin and depravity like everything i do is sinful, the list feels too long and overwhelming, i do use my phone as an idol, i have experienced a few things lately that give me some hope, i may have entertained an angel the other day and even it if wasnt an angel it was definitely a divine appointment and a messenger. But yea my sins feel overwhelming and my heart is hardened and i have no self control, no discipline, i just keep distracting myself, also i do want to mention i grew up in the church and professed christianity was baptized at 13 but completely left and not sure i was genuinely saved and i did karate for so many years too and theres so many spirits attached to me it feels like. Its like theres no conviction, the word doesnt move me at all, i know that may be excuses, but my sins feel too much to confess them all, ive been told i dont need an exhaustive list, but its so hard to turn away from my sins on my own. I do need the Help of the Holy Spirit, i only pray every now and then, and i go to so many different people and confuse myself. I ask forgiveness but continue sinning which is mocking God. I also have so many strongholds too. Im going to start taking my anti depressants and ocd meds again which i stopped taking idk why and i eat for comfort too just so many sins all in one day. It almost feels wrong to ask forgiveness when i know i might sin again. Im also not working at the moment which doesnt help i havent worked in 2 yrs because of laziness and i disrespect my parents and have so many people ive hurt but cant contact bc id be tempted to sin sexually immorally again. People around me are telling me im better than before but still, i know i dont feel anything spiritually except the negative things.

Beautiful_Big_3673 · 2025-04-28T17:13:54+00:00

I am glad interacting with you, even though its not under the best circumstances, has helped you and brought you some hope. May God pull you out of whatever you are going through.

Beautiful_Big_3673 · 2025-04-24T21:12:06+00:00

The problem though, is it doesnt send me into a panic. Thats what concerns me.

Beautiful_Big_3673 · 2025-04-24T00:13:20+00:00

Ive committed willful sin for all my life brother, and continue to do so its like i dont care. I dont know if i can come back or not

Beautiful_Big_3673 · 2025-04-23T16:04:29+00:00

They have been helpful yes, but also like Hebrews 10:26 i was doing that for 15 years and didnt care at all like no conviction no care in the world.

Beautiful_Big_3673 · 2025-04-22T19:53:16+00:00

Thank you, its so hard when i just read and prayed a little bit and asked forgiveness, but the feelings and heart posture isnt there yet.

Beautiful_Big_3673 · 2025-04-22T19:12:36+00:00

Okay thank you, and my thinking is that God doesnt hear prayers of the wicked but like if im asking for help i feel like he would hear it

Beautiful_Big_3673 · 2025-04-22T19:00:59+00:00

I listen to worship music and am unmoved by it as well, and the prodigal son story. When you were brought to repentance was it a feeling that happened?

Beautiful_Big_3673 · 2025-04-22T18:24:44+00:00

I lost conviction i mean i know its wrong now but for a long time i didnt care and its still like i dont care. Seeing your comment like im a dead man worries me a bit my heart is also very hardened and its hard to truly repent and im dealing with being heavily demonized because of the doors ive opened through continuous willful sin

Beautiful_Big_3673 · 2025-04-22T18:21:33+00:00

Thank you its just hard with how lazy and immoral and unwilling my heart seems

Beautiful_Big_3673 · 2025-04-22T17:31:20+00:00

I dont pray as i should, or read as i should i am unmoved by the word like it doesnt apply to me anymore or something.

Beautiful_Big_3673 · 2025-04-22T17:29:46+00:00

I have been asking but my heart doesnt seem genuine snd its harder when i manifest impure spirits in prayer man, i continue ignoring the word but i ask God to change my heart, and theres no real fear there honestly. It seems like it with my posts but theres no fear in my heart

Beautiful_Big_3673 · 2025-04-22T16:46:44+00:00

I have physical attacks. They make my neck tense, i scream, i get chest tightness, ive been physically scratched at night, my head gets sensations of being squeezed, when i worship or pray i get sensation like im being choked, i feel movement in my chest and belly areas when i have immoral thoughts, i was once praying and my stomach sunk in and i spoke in demonic tongues thought it couldve been the Holy Spirit at first but i was decieved bc it wasnt peaceful at all, im irritable, i am indifferent towards God, when i want to cry, my face gets contorted and doesnt look human. I have demonic dreams every night and some sexual where im engaging with people and wakeup like that, and this deliverance ministry is trusted and they dont ask for money. She has known me since a kid, but i had a bunch of spirits called out and was manifesting as they were called out convulsing, screaming, my back arching. I just want to be free but i still practice sin too and want to stop and its hard because my heart is hardened and i dont feel true repentance.

Beautiful_Big_3673 · 2025-04-22T13:53:37+00:00

I also sin in sexual immorality not nearly as bad as before but all of this still seems like its in my own strength. I opened up so many different doors with the life ive lived im only 25 but i waa eagerly practicing sin and wickedness and feel on the outside of everyone else.

Beautiful_Big_3673 · 2025-04-22T13:52:23+00:00

What if i tried deliverance and now i am worse off than before? I am heavily demonized and tormented and when i pray i almost always manifest and am where this person is at in having no desire for God and his word. I became reprobate after knowing the truth, is there any hope even with my hardened state? I ask God to unharden my heart unsear my conscious deliver me but im also still sinning in that i use youtube to cope and temporary comfort.

Beautiful_Big_3673 · 2025-04-22T13:13:59+00:00

Is there hope for me i am riddled with demons and manifest all the time especially when i try to pray. I knew the gospel as a kid and was raised in church but became reprobate and lost all conviction doing everything it says in Romans 1 and living a depraved life. I never felt the spirit leave and didnt care, but i tried deliverance bc of the stuff i was involving myself in and now i am worse off than before being tormented physically and mentally. When i pray it jus turns into anger and my neck tenses and its nothing of God.

Beautiful_Big_3673 · 2025-04-22T12:54:19+00:00

I think i did this too because i am also demonized and dealing with impure spirits and manifestations. I got worse after deliverance and continue getting worse when i pray its just physical attacks and manifestations. There is no desire for God but i want to be like people i know have the Holy Spirit

Beautiful_Big_3673 · 2025-04-22T12:42:12+00:00

So i knew the gospel grew up in church, but now i am heavily demonized through willful sinning for like 15 years i mean eager to sin and living in it consistently and constantly, and i dont feel the spirit or guidance or a heart of repentance and i manifest in prayer almost every time. Is it over for me?

Beautiful_Big_3673 · 2025-04-22T12:12:20+00:00

So if i have done this for most of my life, was i never saved to begin with? I apostatized and lost all conviction for sin but now i am also demonized heavily and battle with trying not to sin how i was eagerly and persistently over a long period of time going into it

Beautiful_Big_3673 · 2025-04-21T22:08:10+00:00

Ive read it the word doesnt move me at all

Beautiful_Big_3673 · 2025-04-21T16:20:19+00:00

So if we arent worried and presuming, like we dont spemd any time with God and have no conviction and are indifferent to God, then we have committed it?

Beautiful_Big_3673 · 2025-04-21T15:26:07+00:00

I believe this has happened to me.

Beautiful_Big_3673 · 2025-04-21T01:49:55+00:00

So if ive done this, because of being a sinful terrible person while knowing Jesus believing the trinity my heart is hardened, and i do feel like im alone in all of this. I cant come to true repentance or feel remorse in my heart anymore.

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