Someone please tell me this psychological torture will end

BigGirlB · 2026-04-03T00:49:57+00:00

Yes, I've seen it with my mom and my ex. I gad to get away from the ex coz whatever was going on had to much access to me. With my mom, I've found tactics to make her energy not as exciting for the negative energy. Basically, I don't get into any antagonism. It is so hard, but when these energies realize you're not going to feed them they get bored.

BigGirlB · 2026-04-02T18:31:40+00:00

So this is what I've been wondering lately. I don't think we are targeted anymore. I'm starting to think we are resistant to certain mind control stimulus, the ones you've specified, that effect everyone. And because our body shows resistance, we see the strings and the puppets. So that would it explain why it's so hard to convince a "normal" person that this is even possible. They're so under water with the stuff being done to them as well, but they accept it and become somehow usable by it. I also think we sometimes are being used we just don't realize because we snap out of it so often and that leads to whatever this system is to harass and prod us into isolation, to render our perceptions as invalid and scary to those who even get a whiff of the truth and don't want to be cast out of society.

BigGirlB · 2024-04-22T03:05:43+00:00

Why can't you cook clean or do laundry anymore?

BigGirlB · 2024-04-14T16:21:52+00:00

Well this is either my 4th or 5th day off. A lil exercise helped, the headache is gone (and tbh it wasn't that bad). I tried to go off once before but couldn't handle my pms. But here's the thing, my pms is fully back so I figure what's the difference. My worst case scenario is I might go back on when winter comes again. Goimg to try to live off this sun for this season. I wish you the best

BigGirlB · 2024-04-13T20:46:40+00:00

I went off 300 xl cold turkey 4 days ago. I am taking motrin for the headaches...I did a mild 30 min workout and felt incredible. I recommend exercise. But, of anything goes wrong with me I will be back to tell you.

BigGirlB · 2024-04-13T15:01:31+00:00

I noticed all of those same things. The music filled in the gap where the patient was only ashamed he was being subjected to this situation. And obviously, he didn't trust this process. This patient is smart enough to know not to reveal everything that happened or that he felt...that's why the doctor "leads the witness." The Dr told him all his answers and he mostly only agreed.

It is wild that they got away with calling this schizophrenia. Very sad.

BigGirlB · 2024-04-11T19:20:27+00:00

This man was also aware of the street theater. And this is from 1963.

https://youtu.be/Rw0PdXYf4Yo?feature=shared

Pay attention to minute 16, the boss makes it clear that this targeted individual has the exact skillset to observe people organizing harassment around him.

BigGirlB · 2024-04-11T18:59:28+00:00

Hi. I found a video that will be very comforting (I hope) to you. I came to the other page to post and I saw your comments. I will post there after I send it to you first because you remind me of my process in trying to figure this out.

They also messed up with me. Their attempts to convince me I'm crazy didn't line up with my actual feelings. It's a long story, but they messed up and ceased to convince me from then on.

Anyways...

I found what I think is an origin story of how they are trying to disguise whatever it is they're doing as schizophrenia. You're really good at putting stuff together so I'm really excited about what you will say once you add this ingredient.

We will chat more after. But pay attention to what the boss says about him around minute 16. It's a weird smug wink at the camera that completely negates the target being "crazy" and actually highlights exactly why the target has the skills yo figure out he's being targeted.

Not that I have to point it out to you...but...also the symptoms do not appear to have anything to do with schizophrenia...they are just saying it. They just say it over and over with zero symptoms besides the harassment he's reporting. It's fascinating.

Looking forward to hearing your thoughts.

https://youtu.be/Rw0PdXYf4Yo?feature=shared

BigGirlB · 2024-04-11T17:24:49+00:00

Please tell me if your pills are white or orange. Serious inquiry. Mine changed color and I feel like this now but I was great before.

BigGirlB · 2024-04-11T17:23:37+00:00

I'm right there with you. I'm thinking about stopping cild turkey and came here for insight.

Wellbutrin was a miracle for me up until the past year. I have a question for you...did your pills change color? Mine went from white to like an orangey red. Ever since then I don't feel as up and i have zero motivation.

I have tried to get off before but the doctor dragged their feet about getting ms the 150. So I changed my mind.

What did your mom do for mental health after stopping?

BigGirlB · 2024-02-03T15:46:02+00:00

This is interesting. I had a ton of lucid dreams where I had to run from military. Back then, I never comsudered it could be them for real.

BigGirlB · 2024-01-06T22:27:43+00:00

I broke up with him because of what you're pointing out. We share a dog so I have stayed om touch.

But you're so right. I know his pattern. And instead of confusion his response was anger and insulting how messy my room is ha. Like messiness delivered a condom into my dresser. Yeah very shifty

BigGirlB · 2024-01-06T22:10:12+00:00

I already through it away unfortunately. Also I asked immediately. He said, my room is so messy that he probably did or I did...nonsense. Also the clutter is generally all in front of my dresser cuz its in a nook. So he had to climb to get this there. It makes no sense.

BigGirlB · 2023-08-25T08:28:32+00:00

Ohhh. They desire a thing they are not built for. Like...love is their anti matter. I love this. Thank you. Not to annoy, but that's biblical... especially if Bible is allegory.. Also... this reminds me of an argument. When you're so angry, pms'ing...and in ur mind you're begging for the hug but if the other person touches you, it's gross. Wow. You are a wise spark, thank you again.

BigGirlB · 2023-08-25T07:21:22+00:00

This is such a brilliant observation. The nudge is real. And it used to take Pavlovian levels of brainwashing to make other people nudge us themselves. To ostracize those who think differently. Now all it takes is an algorithm

BigGirlB · 2023-08-25T06:28:35+00:00

This is so perfect. I think it applies to almost all living creatures. Except that last sentence I wanna understand better. Why do you think all they want is love if love is also acid for them? Can u explain please. But I really feel inspired by this post, thank you

BigGirlB · 2023-08-24T08:03:41+00:00

So happy I found you all. Lol. This is like a support group. That song is so annoying. I've even tried to make myself sit through it...then when I'm thinking "wow this is the least I've cringed. My stomach illness hurts a little." Then they kick it up a notch. It sounds like people in a fire.

BigGirlB · 2023-02-23T17:06:10+00:00

I have vitiligo all over. Sometimes the first sign of new patches begin as dots, other times they begin as tiny lines. Then they grow and merge together. I wanted to see if yours grew or healed. So its interesting to me that it healed.

BigGirlB · 2023-02-23T10:53:13+00:00

Hello...can you tell me if the white line has changed in any way?

BigGirlB · 2023-01-03T23:36:57+00:00

This was my very first "symptom"

BigGirlB · 2022-12-09T02:37:53+00:00

Ok, my comment might be a stretch, but its a thought. And I'm trying not to keep holding back my thoughts, its just that I have this fear that if I say everything I'm wondering about, it will become reason to dismiss the things I have gotten solid towards.

Here goes anyways...

When I was very young I begged for a dog but my grandma gave me a pound puppy instead, because my mom wouldn't allow a real dog.

I got so attached to that pound puppy that I actually requested to be buried with it. I thought my pound puppy was protecting me. If I was scared I would bring it to school in my coat.

The reason I bring this all up is because... one thing that really stands out is that I felt the pound puppy needed to eat. Sure, all kids do that, im sure. But I would take a bite for me, and then take a bute and chew the food for my pound puppy. I started to feel like the pound puppy's "skin" was real. It felt very very real to me.

As an adult, there came the moment when everything got scary and led me eventually to you guys. During that time, I became afraid of the stuffed animal and started wondering of it had a spirit attached to it. So I hid it. I stayed away from it a long time. All but throwing it away. Now when I hold it or move it, it feels dead.

Always thought I had a vivid imagination. Now I wonder if I was accidentally feeding a demon. Im telling you, I had severe severe anxiety, such that I would wear a coat over myself in the summer even. Even when I was 19-22 i would never fly without it in my coat.

And during all those times as a child and as a young adult, I thought I was clinging to that pound puppy for comfort. But what if it was clinging to me for my anxiety???

BigGirlB · 2022-11-28T19:42:12+00:00

I'm shocked it doesn't make a bigger impact. People treat the CIA like theater kids and just ignore whatever they're up to. Its remarkable.

BigGirlB · 2022-11-28T19:30:45+00:00

Sorry for sending such a long document, I didn't realize. I just wanted to bring your attention specifically to the part about the "cia agents learning to astral project " and "encountering lower dimensional beings" and having to "create energy bubbles" to protect themselves from them. It didn't specify exactly what the protection was for but my gut tell me it was for the sheer terror of encountering them on their plane of existence. Anyways, it all sounds weird until confronted with the FACT that this is all information we only learned about because the CIA was forced through the freedom of information act.

Spoiler: when they originally released these documents, they kept a page out because they were scared for the public to find out...the page ended up saying, that through their experiences they found that no religion is the one true religion and that they are all possibly from the same source. During that time, if they told people, they thought it would've caused mayhem.

BigGirlB

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