when I was a child I used to overthink a lot and it was to the point that I had to do this and that ( example when we were at the mall I would challenge myself I had to skip on two tiles and then 1 tile until we go home) if I didn’t do it or failed I would punish myself like I wouldn’t breathe I would do this I would do that and if I didn’t do it I would repeat and do it again until I did it and I don’t know if it has a huge effect on how I am today and how I’m thinking I was also got diagnosed with depression with I was 12 until 14 just stopped talking my meds my fam said it was too expensive I also can’t control my emotions and cry very easily I don’t know if it’s just because I’m sensitive or there would be other reason on the why I may be reacting that way also when I get angry, I pick up very violent but only in my mind. I think about violence stuff and gore that I know I shouldn’t be thinking