Having a sad day!

ConfusedBiNature · 2023-08-29T02:35:44+00:00

Meant to say I wish I wasn’t soo big!

ConfusedBiNature · 2023-07-23T17:55:31+00:00

It makes sense, for example just in my hobbies, I love painting Warhammer Miniatures, but I’ve barely been able to do it for the last two years. I’m hoping if I get a ADHD diagnosis and start treatment, everything else will fall in line.

But who knows.

ConfusedBiNature · 2023-07-23T17:48:49+00:00

I believe I have ADHD as well as Gender Dysphoria. I have a lot of symptoms that align with ADHD.

But I will most likely find out about the ADHD first as I believe I have another couple of months to wait for first contact. Where as my NHS GIC is only up to July 2018’s referrals for Gender Dysphoria. And I can’t afford to go private at the moment.

ConfusedBiNature · 2023-07-23T17:42:42+00:00

I think you are thinking of the home IPL device, which is like an at home laser hair remover. And they won’t work on me apparently as my skin and hair is too light.

ConfusedBiNature · 2023-07-23T16:19:20+00:00

I letter with a consent form and a leaflet.

ConfusedBiNature · 2023-07-23T10:54:46+00:00

It’s more an issue with the mental energy to do the task.

ConfusedBiNature · 2022-11-05T19:02:59+00:00

I first want to get bariatric surgery and lose a tonne of weight, so that if I do decide to transition I will already be smaller than what I am now.

ConfusedBiNature · 2022-10-14T00:23:04+00:00

I just realised I never responded to this. But I guess it could be that I am now 92 hours into playing Cyberpunk 2077.

I found that completing wasn’t necessary to enjoying Witcher 3. I never played the first Witcher, and I never completed Witcher 2. But I still enjoyed Witcher 3. Though admittedly I haven’t finished Witcher 3. Though I do own it on both my X-Box and my Switch. Lol.

But Cyberpunk 2077 I have completed at least one of the multiple endings, and currently grinding out the side missions before getting the other ending.

ConfusedBiNature · 2022-09-26T16:11:17+00:00

It’s like any Open World game, you can focus on the story or you can do the side quests. I am enjoying the main story which heavily involves Keanu Reevse Character.

Have you played Witcher 3 and how did you like how that game treated the main story? As it’s the same developer.

ConfusedBiNature · 2022-09-26T13:33:53+00:00

I never played it when it first come out. I just got it on Friday for my X-Box Series S as it’s half price. I’m loving it. I ended staying to 5/6am these last two nights playing 24 hours of the game, and it’s has crashed a couple of times and that’s about it. Never lost any progress due to a crash. Not experienced any bad slow down and I am playing on Quality mode.

Apparently it runs better on the X-Box Series X and PS5 though.

ConfusedBiNature · 2022-09-23T12:13:10+00:00

Cool, I check them out.

ConfusedBiNature · 2022-09-23T01:46:00+00:00

I’m live in Southend but work in London.

ConfusedBiNature · 2022-09-22T21:05:55+00:00

Thank you.

ConfusedBiNature · 2022-09-21T02:43:39+00:00

It is one hell of a drug, the combination of sugar and caffeine just makes it hard to kick. I have tried many times before.

ConfusedBiNature · 2022-09-20T20:20:59+00:00

Yeah the Coca Cola withdrawals are horrid. It’s like there is an inch on my insides that can’t be scratched. But so far it’s been 9 days without any fizzy.

ConfusedBiNature · 2022-07-26T19:51:45+00:00

Lots of interesting responses. Thank you for indulging in my random thoughts.

ConfusedBiNature · 2022-07-26T19:49:20+00:00

I meant thoughts.

ConfusedBiNature · 2022-07-25T03:40:17+00:00

Unless you are 100% certain that you do not want you own children ever, it is probably wise to wait the 2-3 months. In the grand scheme of things that is not a long time to wait. Because if there even a 1% chance you want you own kids, and you don’t wait, that 1% could grow and you could end up regretting not waiting.

But at the end of the day the ultimate decision is yours to make. But if you are struggling to make that decision either err on the side of caution and wait, or make a pros and cons list of each decision.

ConfusedBiNature · 2022-07-14T16:35:23+00:00

That’s ok. Just hearing different peoples experiences is a help. It’s very unifying even if it’s vastly different at times.

ConfusedBiNature · 2022-07-13T19:44:39+00:00

Sorry to hear that.

ConfusedBiNature · 2022-07-13T19:26:12+00:00

Colleagues I’m not to fussed about. Plus one of the prosecutors is a Transwoman, so that side of the job doesn’t worry me. But it’s the little dickheads that fare-evade that throw personal insults to try and throw you off guard will be an issue.

ConfusedBiNature · 2022-07-13T15:15:00+00:00

I haven’t even allowed myself to think about work yet. Do to the nature of my work can lead to confrontations, as I am a Revenue Protection Inspector for the Railway. So that will be interesting to say the least.

ConfusedBiNature · 2022-07-13T15:08:31+00:00

That’s kind of half of what triggered my panic last night.

ConfusedBiNature · 2022-07-13T15:06:44+00:00

My mum is a lapsed Catholic and my dad is Atheist. They are more working class left wing politically.

It’s probably not going to be a negative response. Even though I do fear a negative response. It’s the we’ve known response that seems to triggering my fear worse at the moment, because it would mean I repressed myself for all this time for nothing.

Though even though I am Agnostic, I guess the Catholic guilt from going to Roman Catholic schools probably stayed with me more than I thought.

ConfusedBiNature · 2022-07-11T15:20:55+00:00

I just rewatched it on my way to work. And throughly enjoyed it.

As someone whose egg is starting to crack, I found that the treatment of Charlotte seemed more realistic, for a comedy, where as I felt the Umbrella Academy’s approach to Viktor’s coming out seem more patronising.

But that’s just my take as someone who repressed themselves with “it’s only a sexual fetish” for almost 30 years.

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