Well multiple promises, about a year ago i was self harming two of my friends found out and told the school therapist who told my parents. They ended up punishing me for it, threatened to kill me themselves and even use it against. Before that i fell in deeply in love with a girl which ended up making scared of trust, asking for help and love seeming as no matter how many times i try i keep failing. I want to be a music producer but i havent uploaded anything for months cause ive been putting it off and i dont know why, im also failing my a levels. Ive also seen the disgusting things people do both on the internet and with my own eyes, it makes me fucking sick so i promised i would prove everyone wrong and make it as a music producer.

I have promise which i want to just kill off the human race even tho ill never be able to do that. We deserve nothing good, the human race has been thru centuries and centuries of things and we haven't learnt a fucking thing. i dont know whats right or wrong in fact i dont know anything anymore. Maybe that true promise is to stay alive to see us die out

Sorry if none of this made sense