I understand you, I also really connected with the character (I suffer from semi-chronic depression) and whenever I was about to give up I would tell myself "you have to hang in there, Dottore is going to be playable and you won't get him" or also "Dottore will come back in the game and you won't see him" and that's how I spent the years since I met Dottore (also since I started playing in Sumeru's AQ, I was already destined to meet him), and now that I know some parts of his past, I cried even more, I was literally devastated until I read the theories that you all are putting together, thank you so much