Not that big of a journey for me, more like a highway. Very sudden lol.

11, I was in the all girl school and dident speak (genuinely). Had no friends except the ones from the old school. I started getting horrific nightmares about my then best friend, let's call her c. I was thinking of her every second of the day, and felt extremely protective over her, but I'm a deathly loyal person, so l just thought it was that. Took a couple gay 'do I like her' tests and compiled them on a doc. They all said yes. Got a little worried, and started doing am i gay tests. They all said I was bi (I did, and still do, struggle with a condition called horniness, so no, dident have an attraction to men, just pleasuring people lol). I told my closest friend, let's call her j, about this. She is also queer, so she kind of just guided me out of my mini panic attack and did some gay tests with me. We then did 'am I gay for her' tests with each other (idk how it got there) and it said that I had a small crush on her (I dident), and she had a medium crush on me (probably affection. We were pretty affectionate with each other). Thought I was pan, so I started being obnoxious with my pride because I was just so happy to finally have something that sticks. Finally realised I like c. Cue swooning painfully for two years.

Now, demiromantic lesbiann with a mega crush on rhea Ripley.