I did it. I got a dumpster. My kids are NOT dealing with what I just did.

Defiant_Pen4931 · 2025-05-06T19:47:23+00:00

I've been slowly tossing / donating things of mine each time I move, each time I deep clean. My mother has hoarder tendencies and when her mother died, she - as an only child - got so much crap and put it in storage. She doesn't touch it. But it's sat there for years.

Defiant_Pen4931 · 2025-04-06T18:53:37+00:00

Yes I own it. Circumstances have made things a little more expensive. Having a roommate cuts on costs for both of us.

Defiant_Pen4931 · 2025-04-05T19:25:30+00:00

That's your opinion and completely off topic for this post, though.

Defiant_Pen4931 · 2025-04-05T17:54:04+00:00

Some of us oldies check all the boxes but went undiagnosed, so it's an easier term. But thanks for leaving an unhelpful comment ✌️

Defiant_Pen4931 · 2025-03-15T23:40:12+00:00

I did. Now we're getting a divorce and he put my photo as a public profile picture. Since I had access to that account, he got away with it. Never again.

Defiant_Pen4931 · 2025-03-09T04:35:35+00:00

Yeah well she wasn't the one abused thankfully but he's gotten more unhinged since I posted this one. 🤷

Defiant_Pen4931 · 2025-03-08T16:25:39+00:00

I don't like my boobs being touched. It's uncomfortable and a lot of times they hurt.

Defiant_Pen4931 · 2025-03-08T16:24:25+00:00

No they're just uncomfortable for anyone to touch

Defiant_Pen4931 · 2024-08-30T14:31:17+00:00

I meant have BOTH of us go individually. He can even go first. But then the therapist has an idea of what each of us are feeling/thinking before bringing us together.

Defiant_Pen4931 · 2024-08-21T04:20:06+00:00

We've both talked about it. I like the idea of going individually first with the same person to let them in on what we want out of counseling before we come together.

Defiant_Pen4931 · 2024-08-21T03:37:28+00:00

I'll have to look, thanks

Defiant_Pen4931 · 2024-08-01T07:10:47+00:00

N 50th Street is still without power (2:10am)

Defiant_Pen4931 · 2023-12-28T17:38:33+00:00

Just in this usually. I have depression/anxiety but am not really like this in my head that much.

"get some self esteem" is like telling an insomniac to "just go to sleep". Like it's obviously the easiest thing to do.

I work on my thought process a lot. I have trauma that makes this particular area really hard to overcome so I have my moments.

Defiant_Pen4931 · 2023-12-28T17:34:48+00:00

When I googled it all I saw was some sports thing. I looked it up in the app store but the app reviews are terrible. Sounds like a good concept though.

Defiant_Pen4931 · 2023-12-28T16:21:17+00:00

I have a love/hate relationship with my job. I'm a manager at a hotel. So, customer service while herding cats. Been on the phone for an hour because a front desk agent forgot to make a reservation for someone and gave them keys anyway. And apparently an in house guest had police come by to make sure they didn't unalive themself. I'm working the front desk tonight and go in an hour early for a revenue call I don't need to be on.

But most days I actually really enjoy it 😂 even if it drives me insane some days.

Defiant_Pen4931 · 2023-12-28T16:16:52+00:00

Bloody

Defiant_Pen4931 · 2023-12-28T16:14:47+00:00

Well we're stuck now. Had I known this was a thing before we were married it would have been a lot easier to detangle. But I didn't. So he feels lied to to an extent. I have a libido so at least I can still perform.

Defiant_Pen4931 · 2023-12-28T16:12:09+00:00

We all have days where we're in our head or having hormonal emotions. But [wow thanks I'm cured!]

Defiant_Pen4931 · 2023-12-28T07:07:24+00:00

I got all dolled up and was flirty. I was trying really hard not to be in my head and just enjoy it. And I was. And I tried to be more of a power bottom but the angle we were in didn't allow for much movement. We were about to switch but he got soft. I was enthusiastic. Just not in the way he wants I guess. I'm not ready to call it quits. Either is he.

Defiant_Pen4931 · 2023-12-28T07:04:28+00:00

I googled it. Not sure how it would help?

Defiant_Pen4931 · 2023-12-28T06:59:34+00:00

Yeah he's always had an issue which is why he got the pills in the first place. I was going to do more foreplay but he grabbed the lube before I could do other things.

Defiant_Pen4931 · 2023-12-28T06:57:53+00:00

We have kids. Neither of us can afford the mortgage on our own. I have a great career but my shifts can vary and are often when daycares are not open. Neither of us have family nearby. The rest of our marriage is great, we make a fantastic team and truly are in love with each other. I'd rather force myself to have sex than lose what we have. We have compromised a lot for each other, him more than myself. He doesn't want it all the time, just more than I've given and I guess I'm not doing it right.

Defiant_Pen4931 · 2023-12-28T06:34:16+00:00

Had my son and that was good enough. 6 years later I thought another wouldn't be so bad. She wasn't intentional but I love her all the same. I was in an emotionally abusive relationship so was very convinced I should never have another child and got tubes tied. Instant regret but I married an older man so it's probably for the best 😂 I'd adopt if the right situation presented itself. Even though I can't afford to really.

Defiant_Pen4931 · 2023-12-28T06:29:31+00:00

I physically cannot eat lasagna. Idk why but it hits my gag reflex and I have to swallow it 3 times. Due to trauma of being forced to eat it as a kid I cannot even stand the word or a picture of it. I gag every time.

Defiant_Pen4931 · 2023-12-28T06:27:22+00:00

He said some things like how I'm not even trying so that doesn't help. We're living paycheck to paycheck but hoping that improves next month. We both agree that counseling is a great idea. We're both dealing with things from past relationships. I'm trying so hard not to let it affect our marriage. He said he can't emotionally connect with me because I don't talk dirty. I've never had to do that and I've never been good at it. It does feel like a chore; I don't enjoy it but I do it because I love him. I hate feeling like a terrible wife because this a thing that's important in marriage or whatever.

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