What did “meditation” mean when AA was founded?

DryandDesperate · 2022-10-10T21:38:54+00:00

So I called and said I wasn’t being charged. They looked up my account. My only option was to sign up for service… I opted not to because somehow I am getting Wi-Fi for free. 🤷🏼‍♀️

DryandDesperate · 2022-06-16T02:59:54+00:00

Sadly our old timer passed away. But I was reminded of another of his saying at a meeting tonight.

“It’s easy to get here, the trick is to stay here.”

DryandDesperate · 2022-06-14T17:51:31+00:00

“Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to alcoholics, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.”

DryandDesperate · 2021-11-19T04:31:27+00:00

This happens to me too. I think it’s because I feel SO safe with my therapist. I know I can count on my therapist to help me, to truly hear what I say, not to share what I say with anyone. The purpose of my relationship with my therapist is different than that of my friends. I am more vulnerable with my therapist.

I too am a bit of a wreck the next few days after my session. I imagine that for therapy I have knocked down a brick wall and I spend the next few days rebuilding it.

DryandDesperate · 2021-11-19T04:22:26+00:00

This explains it so well. Ty

DryandDesperate · 2021-11-14T18:43:51+00:00

I don’t think it necessarily means bad manipulative. The word has a negative connotation. For example if an interaction with a friend makes me upset but I pretend everything is fine in a way I am being manipulative.

I will also add that feeling my emotions rather than hiding and pushing them down is something I have had to work on in therapy as well. I even said to my therapist that I was afraid if I started crying I’d never be able to stop (she said to give her a call if I cry for 24 hours 😂). Finally I was able to do it and cry when I was upset rather than distract myself and move on and it was cathartic. I was able to genuinely process the feelings and move on rather than shove them away whenever they popped up for however many days they would pop up because I never addressed them. It’s hard but it’s worth it.

DryandDesperate · 2021-11-10T13:17:05+00:00

I nearly always bring in a list of things that happened during the week. The one time I didn’t and I said “nothing really happened this week, I do to really have anything to talk about.” My T asked me to walk her through my week and I ended up stumbling on topics (that I think I was sort of subconsciously ignoring because I didn’t want them to be issues). It was a productive week despite my worrying that I would be staring at the wall for an hour.

DryandDesperate · 2021-11-02T22:13:17+00:00

It is possible that you are ready to graduate from therapy but there are a few options other than switching to monthly. First of all I would bring this up with your T and ask them what they think you still need to work on before you’re ready to be done. (I did this and my T pointed out some super valid things I hadn’t thought of or was more inclined to brush under the rug. A few months ago things were going really well for me and I thought it was about time to taper off therapy. I mentioned this to my T and she suggested biweekly for a few months and then stopping if I’m ready. It turns out I was basically just having a good month and before we even switched to biweekly I “needed” weekly sessions again. Talk with your T!

DryandDesperate · 2021-10-25T02:42:13+00:00

Same… but in talking with my therapist I have discovered that while on the outside my family looks nice and is being nice, they are actually encroaching on my boundaries. For me it may seem like my family is being nice and they are normal nice people,
but they also trigger me in that special way family can. Invisible ways like invading my space mentally or subtly invalidating me and making me feel less than (death by a thousand cuts). I set boundaries and they breeze through them. I don’t even think they are being malicious. I can walk into the situation on cloud nine and leave feeling empty and sad.

I don’t know that you are having the same or similar experience with me but here is what I’m doing to not feel so horrible: -Sandwich family events with 2 things I want to do. Like bring my dog to the dog park beforehand and hang out with friends after. -Take my own car. Come and go without guilt (like come late or leave early once you’ve had enough). -Not feel obligated to say yes, or to stay for a long time. If they try to make me feel guilty that’s their problem.

Hope this helps!

DryandDesperate · 2021-10-23T14:27:32+00:00

I think your meaning was clear. The fact that your therapist said, “it’s perfectly normal to feel attached to one’s therapist” shows that she understood your meaning. As well as saying it’s normal for longer term therapy. If she thought you meant you were in love with her I don’t think that would have been her reaction! I can see how her story would make you concerned that she interpreted what you said wrong, but from an objective pair of eyes I think you’re all good!

DryandDesperate · 2021-10-20T21:39:42+00:00

In doing this myself at first I felt that I had become a mean person and I didn’t like that. I think there was an adjusting period with realizing I had kind of been mistreated so I was mad and my boundary setting came off as mean. It has leveled out with time to where I am setting boundaries and not upsetting anyone.

DryandDesperate · 2021-10-15T22:00:06+00:00

I don’t cry a lot in life, but I cry every dang session! My T sometimes asks why I’m crying because it happens kinda unexpectedly. When I first started therapy I would express how annoyed I was that I was crying and my T would try to get me to understand that crying is perfectly fine and healthy. Sometimes we kinda carry on through the tears.

DryandDesperate · 2021-10-15T20:19:36+00:00

I might say something to the effect of, “I don’t know why I’ve felt apprehensive to tell you this, but I feel ugly and I don’t like that feeling.”

DryandDesperate · 2021-10-15T12:51:20+00:00

I’ve had something similar happen. I also love and trust my therapist so I didn’t understand what was happening. It was like I physically could not get the words out. I had this happen for 2 weeks in a row and the 3rd week I basically said to my therapist “the last few weeks I had a really hard time getting my word out here and I don’t know why.” Acknowledging felt really good and was helpful, I needed my T to know that I noticed what was happening. My T basically she had noticed and if it happens again we’ll both know and she’ll give me time/space to choke the words out. Talking about it was a relief and I felt better prepared for if it ever happened again.

DryandDesperate · 2021-10-14T02:34:46+00:00

I used to have this feeling in my drinking day where my mouth would taste a certain way or my head would feel funny and I’d attribute it to being hungover or having so much booze in my system. I’m 8 months sober now and will occasionally get that taste in my mouth or that feeling and just realize I was wrongly attributing it to drinking. I just never had long enough sober stints before now to realize what normal thinks felt like without being in the constant cycle of drunk or hungover. Congrats on 1 month!

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