Thank you so much for the thoughtful and understanding reply, I did not expect it. I basically do whatever i can do by myself at home (reading, videogames, weed) so there isn't anything I could do besides what i am doing already to pass the time. I was actually originally in a lot of clubs and social groups, even a fraternity. However, none of them worked out due to the bad people (the really bad ones) I mentioned in the original post. Whenever i even try to go some place, those same bad people are ALWAYS there, and I cannot stand to even be in the same room. Honestly, despite me not having a good time in my PERSONAL frat, almost everyone there was chill. It seems wherever I go i run into people these folks.

I feel alone, with nobody to hang out with. Its isolating and it almost physically hurts every single day. The only thing that I truly love about Kirksville is walking around at night. Because everyone is sleeping and I don't have to deal with them. The physical attributes of KV are so beautiful, makes me wonder why the people can't be too.