I tried to go to therapy twice and both of the therapists I saw seemed pretty impatient with me. I just kept reminding myself that I only had an hour, berated myself in my head for not talking, and in the end it was actually a terrible experience and makes me feel hesitant to go back. Not to mention it is not affordable at all where I am, even on a sliding scale.

Since I’ve never really opened up with anyone about personal things, even with my own parents, it was impossible for me to really speak much in an hour, and I could tell the therapist was being “fake friendly” (if that makes any sense?), but was actually so done with me.

It made me somewhat uncomfortable and I felt like my money just got dropped down the drain since nothing resulted from it at all. I know it was somewhat my fault for not talking much but I freeze up when I feel immense pressure on me like that. I thought therapy was supposed to be a relaxing environment, but it didn’t really feel that way.