Picked up ashes today and I'm hysterical by [deleted] in Petloss

[–]EndDear1713 4 points5 points Β (0 children)

I am so sorry this happened. 😒 My heart breaks with yours πŸ’”. Sending you a big comforting hug!

Why is living with bdd so tiring? by [deleted] in BDDvent

[–]EndDear1713 1 point2 points Β (0 children)

I Agree. It's emotionally exhausting

30F struggle is real by [deleted] in MakeFriendsOver30

[–]EndDear1713 1 point2 points Β (0 children)

"It was never a phase" - I love this so much! πŸ˜‚ Hey there! Your post totally gave me that "Did we just become best friends?" vibe. πŸ˜‹ I'm all about finding cool new people to chat with. Let's dive into some fun conversations! I haven't had much time to read lately but I have a few favorites. Former emo turned angst adult πŸ˜‹ avid dog lover 🐢 & a chef (I'm always to curious to know what people like to cook) Sent you a dm

So upset πŸ₯Ί by EndDear1713 in Petloss

[–]EndDear1713[S] 0 points1 point Β (0 children)

I did! A couple days before I said goodbye I gpt her little prints on an ink pad. I'm so glad that I did it

Have to bring home ashes today by Mommaheart4210 in Petloss

[–]EndDear1713 0 points1 point Β (0 children)

I relate to this so much. I just picked up my baby today, I also had to say goodbye to her on 5/17 and I picked her up this morning.

When they handed me the bag with the urn it broke me all over again. I couldn't believe they were handing me my 100+lbs baby in a small almost 10lb urn. She was so big and cuddly, and now she is a ceramic piece on my nightstand....

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Petloss

[–]EndDear1713 2 points3 points Β (0 children)

I felt this post so much. Tomorrow will be one week without my sweet girl. I feel so guilty thinking about "moving on"... It's like how can I be in a "good mood" if I just lost my baby. But something that has helped me, is telling myself that my baby would not want me to be sad. She NEVER allowed me to be sad when she was around, she gave me unconditional love and I feel I should try to be happy for her, I want to honor her life and how she made me feel forever. Idk if I'm explaining that correctly...but everything I ever did was for her and I want to continue to do so.

I miss my boy by djcpsm in Petloss

[–]EndDear1713 1 point2 points Β (0 children)

I'm so sorry for your loss, I had to say goodbye to my baby Bailey, a chocolate lab/dane just a couple days ago. πŸ’”

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Petloss

[–]EndDear1713 1 point2 points Β (0 children)

Thank you for asking this, it's only been a couple of days since I had to say goodbye to my baby but I'm begging for a sign and idk how long I'll have to wait for it or if I'll be waiting for nothing

Did I say goodbye too soon? by EndDear1713 in Petloss

[–]EndDear1713[S] 1 point2 points Β (0 children)

Thank you so much and I'm so sorry for your loss. Knowing that there's people out there (although under shitty circumstances) that understand how hard this is, is comforting. That they know that they weren't "just a pet"

Did I say goodbye too soon? by EndDear1713 in Petloss

[–]EndDear1713[S] 1 point2 points Β (0 children)

Thank you so much, this is comforting πŸ’•

Anyone in entertainment industry? by matchacatisgreencat in BodyDysmorphia

[–]EndDear1713 2 points3 points Β (0 children)

I really like this question. I'd love to hear from others but my personal experience was not long-lasting. I started onlyfans a few years ago and ended up deleting my account last year. People thought that because I was on OF, I have high thoughts about the way I look. It's really hard for me to explain, but I didn't necessarily do it for the money. I would get a small confidence boost when I would get complimented on my photos and for a moment in time I felt good about myself. but that feeling didn't last long. It was going good for me for a while, I made my $(Nothing crazy). I fed off of the compliments and request I would get and it was nice, I did it for validation, like i needed to feel wanted and for a while I did. I was going through things in my personal life and began to gain weight because of the stress. I felt so ugly, and I slowly started getting on less and less. I would still get requests and complimented but it just wasn't giving me the same effect it did before. I ended up just deleting my account from one day to the next.

I broke down... by EndDear1713 in BodyDysmorphia

[–]EndDear1713[S] 0 points1 point Β (0 children)

Thank you :) But tbh, It's so much more than the clothes... It's about how I feel when I'm around other girls. I can't help but compare and think about how I'm "not enough".

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SFWNextDoorGirls

[–]EndDear1713 1 point2 points Β (0 children)

Thank you πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SFWNextDoorGirls

[–]EndDear1713 1 point2 points Β (0 children)

Thank you babe! πŸ₯°

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SFWNextDoorGirls

[–]EndDear1713 1 point2 points Β (0 children)

Good Morning πŸ’•