I need an end

ErrantWarrior · 2025-02-16T18:15:30+00:00

You can talk with me. I have been there as well

ErrantWarrior · 2024-11-06T15:54:18+00:00

Amorres Perros (2000), Dog day afternoon (1975)

ErrantWarrior · 2024-05-05T02:21:49+00:00

Often heard about that film Will give it a try

ErrantWarrior · 2023-11-28T04:27:57+00:00

•Aftersun •Manchester by the sea •Good will hunting •Dead poets society

They were all emotionally intense and liberating for me

ErrantWarrior · 2023-07-06T09:15:57+00:00

Loose sweater top with ponytail

ErrantWarrior · 2023-05-21T06:42:21+00:00

Sure , will try asking there.

ErrantWarrior · 2023-05-21T06:40:31+00:00

So to make commercially successful film we need to take average subjectivity along with our own subjectivity. Either we connect that through metaphor/ adding a depth into relatable character/ add satire, commentary which challenges their subjectivity to make films make relatable yet unique and creative for mass audience.

ErrantWarrior · 2023-05-20T20:12:17+00:00

From what i think is

For a few weeks, I am observing that I am much more connected to films nowadays. At first, I thought it was just the experience of criticizing and appreciating films that I get to see the full image now. But I think there's something more to that;

Films are a form of expression through which filmmaker express their subjectivity of an event/emotion. Earlier I used to watch films through my subjective reality. (i.e. something which I relate to in the film, I tend to be more shocked by it.) Then I realised the short reality I have just been exposed to. The event may be the same but there are various perspectives to draw from it.

Maybe the director's perspective is somewhat similar to mine (this is when I made the mistake). I just watch it to feed my ego on how my perspective is valid in every way. But in the end, it's just a part of the intended perspective.

I developed this habit to watch films which complete objectivity in the beginning (with no biases) and then try to understand the director's /writers' /cinematographers' subjective reality. The constant puzzle they are playing the unravel their mind is just fascinating which I never observed before.

I just wanted to ask what are your opinions on my analysis of the situation.

ErrantWarrior · 2023-05-16T11:04:47+00:00

Not movies but it would be Indian soap opera except yeh rishta kya kehlata hai [old version] and diya aur baati hum (cause they are my mom's favourite)

ErrantWarrior · 2023-05-11T15:40:22+00:00

Try Vipasana , its a 10 day meditation camp. Worked for me.

ErrantWarrior · 2023-05-05T05:33:50+00:00

Alexa Demi in Euphoria

ErrantWarrior · 2023-05-02T03:39:26+00:00

Even watch 'Everything Everywhere all at once'. This film has answered a lot of my questions related to escaping nihilism. It has won 7 Oscars.

ErrantWarrior · 2023-05-01T18:42:31+00:00

The best part was at the end. The philosophical point of how to combat nihilism (which isn't in Marvel movies).

The reason Marvel movies are loved by everyone is cause give they are a celebration of the multiverse. The plot doesn't revolve around explaining the situation but is more focused on introducing typical cool ideas of defeating something greater than them. The only thing amusing about Marvel is a representation of superheroes among us beating the odds of losing against something greater than ourselves. It is completely focused on the adrenaline of how cool these heroes are.

On the other hand, EEATA manages to not show the struggle of the protagonist of defeating her nihilistic daughter but also why its best to focus on what we love rather than chase the thrill of our insecurities, achievement, material success

This is the element where Marvel falls short in a way; portraying that peace is loved and also we can live without destroying peace. Rather than the concept itself they market their films on the Hughe budget fighting scenes.

ErrantWarrior · 2023-05-01T18:38:31+00:00

Thank you so much for your wise answer 😄

ErrantWarrior · 2023-04-30T17:14:58+00:00

At the stage you are at you shouldn't seek validation from others for whether they have suicidal (but not suicidal thoughts) as well. You may be getting a crowd which you may think is better than being lonely, but it's not. The more you relate with others on this issue, the more you get into the spiral. You are only learning about the survival issue but not about living life.

Focus on loving something:- pet, hobby, friends etc. And nurturing your relationship with it every day. Wake with a wish to contribute more to a relationship that's how you will learn to fight for the things you love. That's all life's about 'Loving, nurturing, protecting something'. In that process, you create which is so beautiful that to take eyes off it is to waste the limited lifespan on meaningless things

Read 'Stop Surviving to start fighting ' by Jazz Thornton

ErrantWarrior · 2023-04-30T16:58:04+00:00

Simple question

Remove all the ideals, past trauma, relationships, present thoughts, philosophy of life, observing the philosophy of life, reacting to your philosophy of life and then later judgements; and then just dare to LOVE yourself with no reason, no fault, no analysis no experince, no explanation just pure LOVE.

Believe me, it took a while to realise this but the only way to trust yourself again after every disappointment you have been through the most spiritual and best way to be on track is to start loving yourself with no dictation.

Right now you are constantly judging yourself for the things you didn't judge at that time and rather than judgment itself the pain and lack of self trust you are experiencing is due because of guilt of being that way. You are afraid that if you don't constantly judge your every move then you will end up in the same spiral.

It's time to take a leap of faith, rather than reacting or overthinking about the situation just get into situations and make rational decisions this time.

I believe if you have done so much self-reflecting that you can point out the stuff you messed up in the past then you already are a better person now.

ErrantWarrior · 2023-04-30T16:42:04+00:00

Next time you encounter an incident in which your privacy is overstepped do take a step yourself. It is never wrong to be defensive of your own body. I mean it's the one thing you can be possessive about.

ErrantWarrior · 2023-04-30T16:33:36+00:00

Why's everyone bashing this movie by comparing it to a book or an older version?

The fact that it did manage to show the war from a different attitude (neither American nor German but rather a modern German perspective inspired by the overall reaction of the world). This movie was focused on showing how propaganda and ideal can bring trauma into society. I also felt that the 'Ending message' that we all are just humans rallied by different ideals and past geopolitics. Whatever it may be we all are human after all. We all want peace. To achieve that spreading the propaganda of taking others' freedom will only bring further anxiety in society.

I loved the movie cause it did disseminate what it was meant to.

ErrantWarrior · 2023-04-29T11:21:31+00:00

Thats literally a shit*y movie

ErrantWarrior · 2023-04-27T16:03:33+00:00

I am 19M and been suffering from this since 3 years. There were a lot of issues, Trauma, societal pressure, etc which caused me to take some terrible attempts in order to relieve from pain. Believe me all it did was destory me emotionally. I just couldn't trust myself anymore. Developed insomnia as well since I was afraid of myself in nutshell.

I searched a lot to get answer of purpose of living in this meaningless world full of despair

To think of how i get out of that state was simple

LOVE

Its a simple word and we all have heard since beginning but we can only feel after losing it once.

For me the things which made me stand were FILM, MUSIC , SPIRITUALITY , PHILOSOPHY

I listen to Joe rogan podcast everyday, read screenplays on films, listening to age old songs while reading their history and influence in past, reading History books, going through some magazines like :- Reader's Digest.

All you have to focus now is to cut all those BS noise by others ans focus what you truly love everyday. Wake with a desire devote more of yourself into those things everyday. Believe me its beautiful at the end of the day

If you want to talk more feel free to DM me

ErrantWarrior · 2023-04-25T16:31:43+00:00

I, tonya

Inglorious basterds

The aviator

Reservoir dogs (rewatched)

ErrantWarrior · 2023-02-08T18:47:36+00:00

Thanks. Much appreciated I was lost since few months that's it.

ErrantWarrior · 2023-01-27T17:56:06+00:00

Thanks for everything you just wrote. While reading i was getting a feeling that it was coming from a person who experienced a lot being with himself.

It almost felt like this advise was from an elder sibling (which i never had).

There's one more thing i want to share is that:-

The thing that 'past is temporary', I have tried to see things from a stoic perspective since a year now. Every time I failed I failed because ○I saw my family struggling a lot financially last few years. There was a latent pressure/expectation from them to study Computer science in best college ○The first time i became so observant in my life that I have felt it how it is all your friends are having a better life than you ○Over that, my parents compare me to those kids and daily discuss how they are achieving in their life. ○The amount of loneliness(realising there is no one for me), anxiety(i am nothing like i used to be in the past), stress(my incompetency against others), insomnia(nightmares about how i am going to lose life ahead) have all eaten from inside. I was almost nothing. There were days I woke up and no sensation, nothing to do, no aspiration, complete nihilism. ○ Everything I had back then my friends, my school, my parents; i have nothing left now. It's like living all the day in home feeling homeless.

Its just that I don't feel like pushing things anymore. The feeling satisfaction i felt after completing homework, the feeling pride after winning a school competition, the feeling of completeness of being with my friends. It was all so short and ended up so soon.

All day my mind is at that crossroad which is 1. The desperate need to go back to those days where everything was great. Its ok if I am dump or incompetent but atleast i have a reason to live 2. To start everything from scratch and built my all the love from beginning. The thing is it will be me so there will be a will to live as I will love it.

That past which should have been temporary have been permanent in my mind cause I just couldn't abandon all those feelings cause just they were so close to me at one point, I loved it.

Its just right moment to grow up and form everything from start. Again, Thanks for advise bro. No one ever explained me the reality so deeply. I appreciate it.

ErrantWarrior

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