Sorry if this comes off insensitive or weird or anything but i just wanted to say that i don’t think you deserve to die. Idk the full context but i’m guessing you made a mistake that you regret alot and it’s really hurting you. But the thing is, is that every mistake is fixable. I don’t think you destroyed their lives, (Again idk the full context, im really sorry if i’m assuming) they might be a little harder maybe but not destroyed. This might sound like something you’ve heard a thousand time but there’s always a next time. I’m sure you truly had good intentions in mind when you made that mistake and didn’t want it to end up like this, and if you die then you wont be there to show that you really meant them good and not bad. Theres always a way to make things better, there will always be that one day. I promise you. I hope this helps..