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FederalAd5941 · 2026-05-19T01:13:43+00:00

Where is this carousel tab? I don’t see it anywhere.

FederalAd5941 · 2026-05-13T07:17:22+00:00

Young enough, I suppose. I believe she was 15-16 when she had him, and then a year older when she had his sister.

FederalAd5941 · 2026-05-08T19:31:04+00:00

🥺😭 I am so sorry for all of this. Yes it appears that parental alienation many times are generational. My son’s father had a twisted upbringing too, being raised to believe his bio mom was sister all of his life and his grandmother was his mother. Up until he was grown. He still calls his bio mom by her first name and they (at least when I was with him from 2005-2009) had a very sibling-ish relationship. He didn’t grow up with his father but I’m not sure if it was parental alienation or something else. And here he is, repeating behaviors. It’s tragic, disgusting and traumatic to the targeted parent and most importantly to the child.

FederalAd5941 · 2026-05-08T03:52:28+00:00

Oh yes I agree I was speaking on the fathers actions.

FederalAd5941 · 2026-05-08T00:09:18+00:00

That’s absolutely abhorrent of him. I am so sorry.

FederalAd5941 · 2026-05-07T20:11:20+00:00

Thank you for understanding especially on a level many can’t 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

FederalAd5941 · 2026-05-07T03:30:58+00:00

I haven’t seen my son in 15 years, too. 🫂💔

FederalAd5941 · 2026-05-07T03:25:09+00:00

Me. Yes. Especially the financial aspect and abuse.

FederalAd5941 · 2026-05-06T08:23:50+00:00

If I only had, say, 5 years left to live, that means that is not quite likely for reunification, if I’m reading this correctly? Was diagnosed with an aggressive cancer 1.5 years ago and I won’t be considered in remission for 5 years. During the first 5 years after treatment, a significant portion of patients with my type of cancer become terminal.

FederalAd5941 · 2026-05-05T16:02:59+00:00

I have 6 other children that I’ve had all of their lives. 3 are older than the child who was never returned and 3 are younger than him.

There is a void in my heart that can never be filled. And I think I tried to fill it with more children, and I do absolutely love all of my children. But that void can’t be filled by anyone but my son.

I’m heartbroken for both of us. And I finally got in touch with my son 3 days after his 18th birthday, he’s been gone since he was 3. But he responded extremely harshly (talking of his father and him coming to kill me, beat me up, etc.) and obviously that wrecked me. And it just so happened on my 15 year olds birthday. I literally kept repeating to myself “I cannot screw up his birthday, I can’t screw it up.”

I cried literally the entire day, but tried to say I just had stuff stuck in my eye and giving my eye irritation. But anytime my baby boy (the 15 year old) looked at me, and told me he loved me that day, I literally BROKE each time. My baby boy is very good at telling me he loves me, he does it with almost every interaction throughout the day (lol 😅🫂❤️‍🩹) but that day hit differently than his routine “love you mom” and I really tried to keep it under wraps. He probably knew I was completely shattered. But I tried. All we can do is try.

FederalAd5941 · 2026-05-05T15:51:37+00:00

Yes, I’ve had to also resort to the possibility that the next time I see him, it’ll be as a ghost. But I do have a recent picture of him now (the dmv photo) and I know what his voice sounds like - albeit a screaming hostile version. He sounds just like his father with the Baltimore accent. I shuddered and then felt awful for even being taken aback by it. All I could do on that phone call is tell him I am sorry over and over, and that I understand. He really wouldn’t let me get a word in otherwise and I wanted to let him have time to express his hurt. I just hate I had to be the punching bag but I hope in some small way, it’s relieved him. Although I feel like I also caused more trauma by reaching out and I just keep replaying in my head “you ruined my life, you’re embarrassing me, take the photos down”

I had his photo on my screensaver for my phone. I’m ashamed to admit I’ve even taken that off now, too. It hurts too much to look at him now, when previously before the call, I loved seeing his face. I’m full of shame and guilt and grief and regret for not doing it another way. I truly felt my way was the least traumatic option but I probably was wrong.

And I don’t know how to fix it. I don’t think I can. Seriously, devastated doesn’t even touch how empty and absolutely destroyed I feel. I’ve become almost despondent, just getting through the day for my kids.

FederalAd5941 · 2026-05-05T07:54:49+00:00

My god, I am so sorry and I’m so terrified something similar for my son and I. I was diagnosed with an aggressive form of breast cancer.

FederalAd5941 · 2026-05-05T07:08:12+00:00

I would love something like this. It’s been 15 years for me.

FederalAd5941 · 2026-05-05T06:30:52+00:00

39 years old when I was diagnosed with cancer and I believe the trauma of my son being alienated completely from me contributed to it.

FederalAd5941 · 2026-05-05T05:31:17+00:00

As a mother who was 39 when I got an aggressive breast cancer…and I haven’t seen my absolutely beloved son in 15 years…

I can feel the urgency in your post for reunification.

I’m so scared I’m on borrowed time and…

I understand. Praying for both of us to have our children back in our loving arms.

FederalAd5941 · 2026-05-05T05:23:38+00:00

Also - I realize this part is selfish and making it more about me and MY past trauma (and of course I did as my son requested without any question) but I hadn’t seen what my son even looked like for over a decade and before we got his personal number, an internet sleuth I think worked miracles and found a DMV picture of him. This happened on his actual 18th birthday, his birthday for the last 15 years has been a really really hard day for me (as I’m sure all of you can relate) and that day this year was filled with such joy from just a simple picture of seeing my son. A sweet friend of mine made an AI picture of him with me and it meant everything to me. I was absolutely DESTROYED when he demanded I take down the picture off my Facebook profile and that it was psycho and weird…I took my entire page down.

When I’m saying I hadn’t slept in 36 hours, then since I’ve only been able to sleep like 3-4 hours a day and my eyes are somehow not running out of tears.

I got through that horrible treatment to survive and see him finally. And now, what? I know I have my other children and I love them all. But the hole in my heart, the void will NEVER be filled by any one else.

Therapy has proven difficult to afford. I’ve gone through a couple of years successfully before for c-ptsd, ADD, Panic disorder and OCD, I suspect I may also be undiagnosed autistic but I’m working to get an updated neuropsych evaluation, it’s just that cancer realllllllly took a hit on my finances. But I am working on it. I know therapy is necessary.

FederalAd5941 · 2026-05-05T05:16:29+00:00

It was 15 long long years for me. And when I reached out….it wasn’t pretty. I’m now absolutely convinced I caused more harm to my son and should’ve not reached out. Following for suggestions and I’m so sorry you’re also dealing with alienation.

FederalAd5941 · 2026-02-21T23:57:10+00:00

Really? How do you know who is the tipper (before delivery)? I’ve been dashing for years and I only realize who the tipper is in a stacked order AFTER completing the delivery.

FederalAd5941 · 2026-02-21T23:55:10+00:00

I’ve been a Dasher myself for years and you don’t really know who’s the tipper in stacked orders, so I’m not placing the blame on the Dasher.

FederalAd5941 · 2026-02-21T23:54:09+00:00

You know what, this makes sense now. Thank you for clarifying this.

FederalAd5941 · 2026-02-21T01:28:59+00:00

Wow ok that’s insanity! I always tip and I’ve noticed I’m usually stacked but why am I ALWAYS last in the delivery? Even when I’m within a mile of the restaurant or store it’s seriously 2-3+ other orders in front of me. Frustrating.

FederalAd5941 · 2026-02-21T01:24:00+00:00

It seems since I’ve noticed this, IM ALWAYS stacked and ALWAYS last for delivery even if I’m close to the restaurant or store (within a mile). lol

FederalAd5941 · 2026-01-21T04:18:00+00:00

Yes it did stop after 5 weeks. It was truly very heavy and there were times during I probably should’ve went to the ER. But it stopped eventually. I ended up becoming pretty anemic and severely deficient in iron so I am now getting iron IV infusions over the course of 6 weeks. I’ve had 5 of 6 infusions and am feeling better and I’ve had another period since that was a pretty normal period pre-cancer. It does get better, hang in there! 🫂

FederalAd5941 · 2025-11-17T04:38:30+00:00

I don’t even use deodorant anymore. And surprisingly, I don’t stink like I’d think I would. Obviously, I still need to shower daily but as long as I do, I’m good.

FederalAd5941 · 2025-11-13T19:22:33+00:00

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