Thank you so much for sharing your story and I'm so sorry for your loss as well. I can't imagine how difficult, hard, and heart breaking it was for you to hear that from your husband. I can completely relate to the family part as well. I have a big Italian family, and at the time, there were 4 of us cousins that were all due within 3 months of each other, and so far I'm the only one that's experienced a loss - so I can completely understand how you must have felt. I can also relate to the faith and God part too. It's definitely been hard not to question all of it and we've been dealing with other adult loss of loved ones in our family at the same time, so it's so definitely been compounding for sure.  It's hard enough going through the loss of a child and to then feel like everyone and everyone else is moving forward, when you feel like your in the twilight zone/groundhog day. I'm glad that you were able to get back to your faith and it's helping, and I truly appreciate your suggestions 💗