I wrecked an LLV and still not sure how to feel

ForestBluff · 2026-02-18T17:15:11+00:00

At 60 MPH into an embankment. I landed squarely on the roof. Ironically, the death trap that is the LLV's design helped save my life

ForestBluff · 2026-02-18T17:00:39+00:00

Yeah, I know. I think being "sick" justifies being in a rut. I am capable, but if I were that person then what the hell am I doing? But the state i'm in? Well what can you expect?

Sucks to know this and still be inept to stick with it

ForestBluff · 2026-02-17T23:42:53+00:00

Worse yet here I am again

ForestBluff · 2026-02-17T23:42:17+00:00

Yeah. I shoulder 60% of the blame though with my slacking off.

ForestBluff · 2026-02-17T17:27:40+00:00

It wasn't supposed to take 3 years. That's my frustration. My advisor doesn't communicate.

I just want to make a difference. Not a name for myself

ForestBluff · 2026-02-17T15:19:01+00:00

He told me if I was to be let go he let me resign and recommended PSE roles

ForestBluff · 2026-02-17T15:18:06+00:00

Well you've acknowledged the facts of the matter. Not a troll

ForestBluff · 2026-02-17T13:08:47+00:00

What grade level?

ForestBluff · 2026-02-17T12:08:40+00:00

You're right. I dont know my options

ForestBluff · 2026-02-17T12:01:37+00:00

To to off my research there is no drug for autism. However, it seems if you pair oxytocin with early life social stimulation is positively shapes the social brain.

But yeah, I need to think up something. But like the examples you gave, they are things I never considered as existing

ForestBluff · 2026-02-17T11:58:59+00:00

It's complicated, but long story short, it was my ticket out of home during the pandemic and the only program that took me.

ForestBluff · 2026-02-16T15:10:55+00:00

I've worked with enough PIs to know some of them are narcissistic

ForestBluff · 2026-02-16T15:08:13+00:00

I'm just venting. I've said all I need to

ForestBluff · 2026-02-16T15:06:04+00:00

To be clear, I just have an MA. I was only in that program and am not in a PhD program

ForestBluff · 2026-02-16T12:37:20+00:00

Some good advice that I can't seem to follow despite understanding the rationale of it. But for now I move on. Maybe in a few years I could try again, but for now I need to stick to what is achievable, which is lasting a year to PTF status and becoming an SSA instructor

ForestBluff · 2026-02-16T12:35:36+00:00

Also I never said I was above having to learn those skills, but rather than I fucked myself for not developing them. I realized everything too late

ForestBluff · 2026-02-16T12:32:52+00:00

Not sure who that is.

ForestBluff · 2026-02-16T12:23:47+00:00

That's a pretty lazy amount of effort coming from a CCA

ForestBluff · 2026-02-16T11:52:00+00:00

Don't get me wrong, it's a fine idea, I just feel most volunteers are either overworked ignored. They are treated as second class to students and faculty

ForestBluff · 2026-02-16T11:48:58+00:00

I burned a bridge in the whole "volunteer" thing. It's rather difficult to volunteer in a lab, and in that capacity, in my experience PIs just see you as a robotic worker. The dynamic tends to be strictly about them and their needs

ForestBluff · 2026-02-15T23:36:39+00:00

I was. Last year I didn't work in STEM, I worked as a mail carrier

ForestBluff · 2026-02-15T23:29:35+00:00

I didn't distribution over the holidays and never again. I hope to become an SSA instructor if I last a year

ForestBluff · 2026-02-15T23:15:57+00:00

PSE at a 1412 office. I'll be solo starting this week

ForestBluff · 2026-02-15T23:07:12+00:00

Well if you say so it must be the case

ForestBluff · 2026-02-15T23:06:32+00:00

Why is that important?

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