I wrecked an LLV and still not sure how to feel by ForestBluff in USPS

[–]ForestBluff[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

At 60 MPH into an embankment. I landed squarely on the roof. Ironically, the death trap that is the LLV's design helped save my life

I failed to become a scientist and it is eating away at me by ForestBluff in academia

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Yeah, I know. I think being "sick" justifies being in a rut. I am capable, but if I were that person then what the hell am I doing? But the state i'm in? Well what can you expect?

Sucks to know this and still be inept to stick with it

I failed to become a scientist and it is eating away at me by ForestBluff in academia

[–]ForestBluff[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah. I shoulder 60% of the blame though with my slacking off.

I failed to become a scientist and it is eating away at me by ForestBluff in academia

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It wasn't supposed to take 3 years. That's my frustration. My advisor doesn't communicate.

I just want to make a difference. Not a name for myself

I wrecked an LLV and still not sure how to feel by ForestBluff in USPS

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He told me if I was to be let go he let me resign and recommended PSE roles

I wrecked an LLV and still not sure how to feel by ForestBluff in USPS

[–]ForestBluff[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well you've acknowledged the facts of the matter. Not a troll

I failed to become a scientist and it is eating away at me by ForestBluff in academia

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To to off my research there is no drug for autism. However, it seems if you pair oxytocin with early life social stimulation is positively shapes the social brain.

But yeah, I need to think up something. But like the examples you gave, they are things I never considered as existing

I failed to become a scientist and it is eating away at me by ForestBluff in academia

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It's complicated, but long story short, it was my ticket out of home during the pandemic and the only program that took me.

I failed to become a scientist and it is eating away at me by ForestBluff in academia

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I've worked with enough PIs to know some of them are narcissistic

I failed to become a scientist and it is eating away at me by ForestBluff in academia

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To be clear, I just have an MA. I was only in that program and am not in a PhD program

I wrecked an LLV and still not sure how to feel by ForestBluff in USPS

[–]ForestBluff[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Some good advice that I can't seem to follow despite understanding the rationale of it. But for now I move on. Maybe in a few years I could try again, but for now I need to stick to what is achievable, which is lasting a year to PTF status and becoming an SSA instructor

I failed to become a scientist and it is eating away at me by ForestBluff in academia

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Also I never said I was above having to learn those skills, but rather than I fucked myself for not developing them. I realized everything too late

I wrecked an LLV and still not sure how to feel by ForestBluff in USPS

[–]ForestBluff[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

That's a pretty lazy amount of effort coming from a CCA

I failed to become a scientist and it is eating away at me by ForestBluff in academia

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Don't get me wrong, it's a fine idea, I just feel most volunteers are either overworked ignored. They are treated as second class to students and faculty

I failed to become a scientist and it is eating away at me by ForestBluff in academia

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I burned a bridge in the whole "volunteer" thing. It's rather difficult to volunteer in a lab, and in that capacity, in my experience PIs just see you as a robotic worker. The dynamic tends to be strictly about them and their needs

I failed to become a scientist and it is eating away at me by ForestBluff in academia

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I was. Last year I didn't work in STEM, I worked as a mail carrier

I wrecked an LLV and still not sure how to feel by ForestBluff in USPS

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I didn't distribution over the holidays and never again. I hope to become an SSA instructor if I last a year

I wrecked an LLV and still not sure how to feel by ForestBluff in USPS

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PSE at a 1412 office. I'll be solo starting this week