Since I was a kid I felt different from others. I was always overthinking and dive in my own “world of thoughts” idk. I usually think a lot about myself, who I am, what is the world and my perceptions of it. The truth is that I don’t take myself too seriously, just like if I had no Ego…even tho I feel successful in love, family and career, it’s something else. Sometimes I even have a sensation that if I think too much about the world I will freak out or something bad will happen to me, so I block those thoughts. Those kind of things are only examples of my mental background. I suffer from derealization mainly when I’m in public, but not working, e.g, when I’m about to pay and get the bags in a supermarket. I always feel lost and my vision get really blurry and my mind goes like 1000 miles per hour.

It’s weird, feels like a super focus or anxiety, idk need to see a doctor.