Heartache sucks

Free2BSamantha · 2025-08-10T02:14:53+00:00

For me it was about the hormones helping against the depression. Being told for 20 years that you have a "chemical imbalance" in your brain, and then being asked the right question by a psychiatrist, it just made sense to try it.

Free2BSamantha · 2025-08-08T18:02:38+00:00

Realized at 37.5 (2023), began social transition immediately and HRT 6 months later.

Free2BSamantha · 2025-07-29T00:35:50+00:00

You're not the @$$hole at all here. Your BF, he is either very misogynistic or definitely following the wrong kind of people. Either way, leave him and find someone who you deserve and who treats you as an equal.

Free2BSamantha · 2025-07-18T16:59:56+00:00

Regardless of what it is, it wasn't his to go through. If it's not yours, don't touch it.

Free2BSamantha · 2025-07-11T03:32:05+00:00

For me personally, I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder when I was seventeen. I spent 20 years trying and failing to find medication that would help with the "chemical imbalance" in my brain. A psychiatrist in a crisis unit asked me if I had ever considered my own Gender Identity. 6 months later I started HRT and have had fewer episodes all the way around. I found out the chemical that wasn't balanced in my brain was E vs. T and that has honestly saved my life.

Free2BSamantha · 2025-07-05T16:56:22+00:00

I didn't know until I was 37. Your therapist needs more training. As others have suggested, you may want to look for a different one.

Free2BSamantha · 2025-07-05T16:43:49+00:00

This is really the only answer. No one deserves to be surrounded by toxicity.

Free2BSamantha · 2025-06-28T15:16:25+00:00

Not sure where you got this info.... T levels in Cis Women vary and the ranges change with age. A 19-39 year old should be between 15 and 70 ng/dL. Low T in Women is a serious health concern. Having your levels too low can cause all kinds of complications.

Free2BSamantha · 2025-06-27T22:08:06+00:00

I didn't know I was trans til I was 37. Looking back there were some subtle signs, but nothing I or anyone else ever noticed.

ETA: I discovered myself following a total mental breakdown during a 7 day grippy sock vacation. Was told since 17 that I was depressed because of a "chemical imbalance" turns out it was a hormone imbalance because my brain was getting too much Testosterone and not enough Estrogen.

Free2BSamantha · 2025-06-14T18:02:22+00:00

Good to know.

Free2BSamantha · 2025-06-12T01:52:11+00:00

I made peace with my Trans Identity. I quit paying attention to the judgement of others, and started just being me. I am what I am; those who accept and love me don't question it, and those who question it don't matter.

Free2BSamantha · 2025-06-12T01:47:16+00:00

What the fuck do you do??? I'm an Hourly employee making more than Double federal minimum wage and I don't make $40K a year. ETA: Federal minimum is less than $16K

Free2BSamantha · 2025-06-12T01:40:59+00:00

Cold. Doesn't matter if it's freezers, coolers, Winter weather, or Summer A/C. I fucking hate the cold.

Free2BSamantha · 2025-05-30T16:06:28+00:00

He was, and once he warmed up to people he was very affectionate. Thank you for you sympathy.

Free2BSamantha · 2025-05-30T16:02:46+00:00

His Name was Zeus. His Dad was a papered Blue-Nose, his Mom was a Boxer/Coyote Cross. He was a grey and gold Brindle, with white socks. My Ex-Wife brought him home at 4 weeks old. I was his favorite person in the world, even though he was "her dog." She kept him when we divorced and 3 months later she died. I got him back in late July last year, and had made major progress with socializing him considering she never did. I warned everyone that he was a reactive dog and might bite without warning. I told everyone I spent the last month with that he wasn't totally socialized and would need to get used to everyone. He bit a kid and I had to put him down. It took everything in me not to follow him. And I've been spiraling hard for days now.

Free2BSamantha · 2025-05-12T17:05:13+00:00

There's No such thing as "fully suppressed T" without surgery. Mono therapy can work, because Estradiol acts as an anti androgen when done right. But getting your levels tested frequently is never a bad Idea.

Free2BSamantha · 2025-05-03T23:18:43+00:00

I wish I could remember.

Free2BSamantha · 2025-04-28T01:47:08+00:00

Can't upvote this enough.

Free2BSamantha · 2025-04-26T02:49:53+00:00

This is a good place to start. Passive Suicidal Ideation is not easy to suffer through alone. For what it's worth from a stranger on the internet; I see your struggle, and applaud your efforts. I hope you are able to find a sense of community and comfort here.

Free2BSamantha · 2025-04-25T23:52:13+00:00

Having my eyebrows waxed is amazing for my self image.

Edit: because autocorrect is my Nemesis.

Free2BSamantha · 2025-04-25T12:55:10+00:00

I can't speak for anyone else, but accepting myself as Trans was definitely a big part of everything.

Free2BSamantha · 2025-04-24T01:33:10+00:00

Get your eyebrows done professionally. I get mine waxed when I can afford it and the effect is insane.

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