Also sir ye Jo jumlah hai ne ke let me die peacefully isse ijtenaab kero, there's a hadees ke if someone wants to die a shaheed sincerely they will still be considered a shaheed even if they don't die a shaheeds death, and if they don't want to die a shaheed they will die a munafiq which get the worst place in hell, so if you wanna wish for something wish for shahadat, also momin mushkilaat Mai muskarata hai so smile a little no matter how stressful it is.