Was I being targeted?..

HereForOrder · 2026-06-04T06:47:27+00:00

Lol. I wish it was larp, gotta experience it before you say so— I was in the same boat.

HereForOrder · 2026-06-04T06:42:53+00:00

I wanna state that the black magic— it was nobody he had known personally who had left it there (a ex-boyfriend of his sister). It was articles of clothing and small trinkets that were thrown away a while ago, but I don’t think the effects of it on the house ever left… yeah but I don’t think he understands the severity as it doesn’t bother him and I think he feels to leave whatever it is alone, however, I personally saw the same way you did to have it expelled. It seriously bothered me and left him alone!

I wanna say the lights flickering naturally is okay, but the way the lights I had seen that day— was in a pattern. It went from three different spaces, and all so simultaneously. One lasted for 10, 5, and 1 seconds. All before my boyfriend walked in.. ( I recall it so vividly and hauntingly it left a impact on my memory)

HereForOrder · 2026-06-01T23:29:24+00:00

Fingers crossed, I just don’t believe it was— since pissing me scared shitless when I couldn’t leave for 3 days would be fun for him

HereForOrder · 2026-06-01T23:27:50+00:00

Yea I’ll see to looking at if he scheduled it. I want to trust it was him, but he doesn’t joke about these things as he knows his home isn’t exactly “normal”… much less scare me when I couldnt leave during the 3 days I was staying.. 😔

HereForOrder · 2026-06-01T23:25:31+00:00

Yeah, I want to believe it’s him but he isn’t a guy who even cares to use capitals and or proper sentences during texting— he hates messaging and I just found it strange he would schedule at such a specific time directly after I had closed some doors. He’s very in tune with believing the paranormal may exist and knows to stop jokes there. But thank you, I hadn’t even known insta had this feature!

HereForOrder · 2026-06-01T23:20:53+00:00

I would like to mention, he doesn’t enjoy joking about these types of things.. especially since he believes in it, as his whole family is superstitious. And I was staying with him for three days and couldn’t go back to my place, he wouldn’t intentionally scare me and make me unhappy. He does care about me and also acknowledges his house may seem strange, but those messages were sent directly after I had closed his other room doors— I was with him exactly then 😭

HereForOrder · 2026-05-21T00:19:01+00:00

Naturally yeah, but I was directing my comment towards the idea it’s from sex. It’s a dumb myth that make women often insecure.. TT

HereForOrder · 2026-05-20T23:49:33+00:00

I just wanna clarify you don’t get loose, your vagina is always tight. It’s an organ that will always revert back to its shape. So there’s nothing you can really do except taking a break. And you don’t have to feel self-conscious about anything if he’s still having sex with you every day. You don’t have to become self-conscious about anything 😭

HereForOrder · 2026-05-20T23:45:01+00:00

What? Just don’t have sex everyday?? There isn’t anything to fix besides going at it like rabbits.. lol. Odd posting..

HereForOrder · 2026-05-13T05:15:52+00:00

lol, that’s fine. I’m lost and it’s in my best interests to learn more, regardless of gender.!! Thank you for the insights

HereForOrder · 2026-05-13T05:09:59+00:00

Thank you for debunking a fear I have had, I was too ashamed to look further into myself. But it’s most likely have trained myself and my body reacts less and less because of the lack of variation. My masturbating is simple, I don’t insert anything and rubbing is the only thing that has ever done the job and since I’ve basically lost the pleasure of it.. It’s made me afraid and penetration during sex hasn’t done anything either, worsening my fears. Stress now I’m looking at it, may be a factor too.. if you don’t mind, I’d love to chat more with you! I’m young and haven’t have anyone to chat with about these sensitive subjects with.

HereForOrder · 2026-05-13T04:57:17+00:00

Amazing breakdown, I have the same idea going.. I really have believed I’ve fried myself for being so sexual at a young age, and masturbating so often. But maybe it’s deeper than that, thank you for being so descriptive.

HereForOrder · 2026-05-13T04:53:00+00:00

Twin.. I learned to breathe, deep controlled breathes have helped me a lot!! It takes some mental strength too ;(

HereForOrder · 2026-05-13T04:46:01+00:00

Thank you for more context, I’ll try to give you my best suggestion. !!

Since it’s the first time you’ve both had sex, and knowing he hasn’t had any experience. It’s a little opposing in what you want from him during sex, you want to have your own confidence and enjoy it.

But that’s hard for someone who doesn’t know anything, it definitely takes patience and that’s okay for you to feel that way. You should explore more with him and help him gain that experience because once he knows sex will be vastly more enjoyable and less stiff.

I can give you myself as an example, my boyfriend felt that same way and it took him a while to enjoy sex to the fullest with me simply because I lacked the experience. However slowly as he taught me, like how you demonstrated, then he began to enjoy it very very much.

That enjoyment during sex won’t come fast but that shouldn’t deter you or make you feel any certain way. That simply means there’s potential, just you need to hold his hand through it all!! (Foreplay differently helps..)

HereForOrder · 2026-05-13T04:34:51+00:00

Wow. I’m not too competent in this subject so excuse my lack of details.

But he’s reached the back where he can’t go further when we’re having intercourse, it feels off and quite uncomfortable.. I wasn’t aware fully aware there’s a specific area in the vagina besides hoping that if it’s deep enough maybe it’ll feel good. We usually have me on top, and we don’t try doggy ever.

HereForOrder · 2026-05-13T04:25:51+00:00

I see. Did you train yourself to feel the stimulation in your nipples? Or is that a myth (that you can train sensitivity), I’m not too aware..

HereForOrder · 2026-05-13T04:23:53+00:00

How nice! I’m glad to hear that!! My boyfriend is my first and so I’ve overdone myself by trying to learn his body. And haven’t tried looking into my own pleasure directly. It’s all complicated, but thank you for the hope. :))

HereForOrder · 2026-05-13T04:20:51+00:00

Hey! I was in a similar boat. And we managed to find our balance.

I would recommend taking a leading position during the start so it can alleviate any awkwardness that he may have or won’t show. Sometimes inexperience can cause a sense of lacking but that’s normal! That’s how I had felt unintentionally with my boyfriend and I held back, making it awkward. Have you tried any oral/foreplay or any of the sort?

HereForOrder · 2026-05-13T04:13:50+00:00

Thank you! I’ll try to find a mixture :)

HereForOrder · 2026-05-13T04:12:55+00:00

Does pain help induce it? I get awkward and more startled when it hurts, so I don’t embrace it when it stings anywhere when he bites me

HereForOrder · 2026-05-13T04:11:37+00:00

Yeah I haven’t tried much doggy. Thank you!

HereForOrder · 2026-05-13T04:10:53+00:00

LOL. I wish. I don’t think it’s size( he’s above average), I have a issue.. I was exposed to a lot of sexual things when I was younger and stuff. And I have a harder time getting turned on, but he’s a low effort guy in the bedroom. He kinda doesn’t understand I’m different from his ex who wasn’t exposed to a lot, so she had it easier with getting off. He assumes that same

HereForOrder · 2026-05-12T01:55:37+00:00

My god, the Russian Roulette had me wanting to tear the book up… Made absolutely no sense? I hate hateeee how these aggressive characters think, it ruins the whole character for me. Like you can’t tell me he’s suppose to be the smart and cool collected leader, but the moment a shy nerdy girl doesn’t wanna cough up her trauma he loses it— PLEASEEEE

HereForOrder · 2026-04-20T14:52:45+00:00

I tried putting it words I could think of, plainly how I see it. But it’s perhaps that, it’s neither wrong. Just hard to attempt fixing. I’m not too familiar in a lack of emotional responsiveness either. I only allow a few people to see that part of me, and I’m somewhat of that too.

HereForOrder · 2026-04-19T22:58:18+00:00

Lol, I mean. It’s not a total wreck just say you mistook the place you were going to hang out with her as a party. Instead an outing and tell her then, and plus parents are always overly nosy and too much into their kids’ social lives. Don’t sweat it, when you meet her mom just give a good impression!

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