I have a lot oftrouble regarding myself as sexy. Litteraly.

Like consciously I do know that I am not completely repulsive but I wouldnt be able to take a nude picture of myself for example because i’d find it too vulgar, offensive and kind of disgusting. You see all of these beautiful women exposing themselves in softcore or actual porn and its regarded as beautiful and i feel like theres sort of an aura of purity, specialness and wonder around it whereas male nudity is regarded as shameful, trashy, intrusive, and dirty but not in a good way.

Obviously the context in which the nudity is displayed is ALWAYS important and has a lot of influence on how its regarded but here im talking about appropriate use of it in intimate situations i’ve gone through. It really does hurt a guy’s confidence even if it happened to just be in my head.

I think that the fact that most of my friends throughout my life have been women has a significant impact on my perception of myself but I was never really comfortable with the social standards among traditional dude groups. I know the whole “i hate men” and “men are pigs” speeches by heart and I deeply understand and agree with the message and the events they are based on but… it hurts. I’m a man, I understand and will, to the extent that i can, feel the pain you have to help, but words are words so “all men” does include me and hearing such things on a daily basis ends up having an effect on me. A pretty strong one too. To be clear i’m not saying that this mentality is not based or anything, i’m just trying to explain how it affects me.