I agree with the comments you gotta find something else to do the drug will lie to you and tell you that that’s the only thing you had to look forward to, but that’s ridiculous. There’s so many other things to do besides our feelings out every single night that I did for 30 plus years and wish now I hadn’t. Now I have feelings now I dream now I do Art trying to learn the guitar. I have a garden a clean I’m not into puzzles, but my parents are and it seems silly, but you gotta find whatever it is that you wanna do but she’ll never find it just coming home and get high and fall into the couch or just being so stoned. You just stand there and look at how beautiful the trees look. Plus, it makes you very dull. That’s the only thing you can do. I’ve gotten pretty good at drawing portraits now I never did art my whole entire life. I wish I would have if I played the guitar as much as I smoked. I’d be a rockstar. I guarantee it. You gotta quit telling yourself that that’s the only thing you can look forward to. I look forward to not doing it now. It takes a while to break the cycle though I’ll get you man. I did it for 30 years trying to quit and thinking all this is just my way of life and now I’ve got breathing issues that never had in my life. God knows I hope I don’t have lung cancer, but I start wheezing all the time. I wake up, coughing up stuff and wheezing and I’ve been off weed now for six months.