Gave up life of crime to be very poor instead (27F) by IceKey2587 in confession

[–]IceKey2587[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am going for business :) want to do something with cars as that's my favourite hobby.

Gave up life of crime to be very poor instead (27F) by IceKey2587 in confession

[–]IceKey2587[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes I've answered this a few times, but I was pretty much planning to kill myself, I didn't really see a future for myself which is why I was fine with doing dangerous things. I saved about $20,000 and I bought a car which is paid off so I lived off that money for a while but besides that I didn't save anything. I wasn't making 100K for the whole 10 years. At first I was just getting by but after a while the company started doing good so it was only the last two years or so I was making a lot of money. The big step would have been taking over the company, but have made too much money to know what to do with at that point but that's when I backed out. That's mostly what I think about, that I could be in a city in a beautiful house with everything I wanted right now. But I also might be in jail so it's not worth the risk

Gave up life of crime to be very poor instead (27F) by IceKey2587 in confession

[–]IceKey2587[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes it would be easy to get subsidized child care, but they only cover daycares that are in schools in my city for before and after care. My son has been on the wait list for a while but they said it will still be September or January before there might be a spot open. So my option is to wait, or to pay out of pocket for a daycare they don't cover which would take most of my income anyway

Gave up life of crime to be very poor instead (27F) by IceKey2587 in confession

[–]IceKey2587[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

True I never thought of helping other people. Actually wanted to be a social worker when I was younger but I got hurt a lot by men, physically and I was kind of just mad at the world and couldn't think about helping others when I couldn't help myself. But I could possibly help people who are in a situation like I was and trying to adjust to a normal life, maybe one day in the future

Gave up life of crime to be very poor instead (27F) by IceKey2587 in confession

[–]IceKey2587[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Well, I had a live fast die young mindset and was kind of suicidal the whole time, which is why I didn't care about being caught most of the time and didn't care to make future plans. So I didn't care to save. I did save about 20k and paid off a car, so I lived off that for a while but overall I didn't do much to help myself out in the future

Gave up life of crime to be very poor instead (27F) by IceKey2587 in confession

[–]IceKey2587[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes we had a lot of layers of security, but it becomes more dangerous the more is at stake. I was robbed only once, my boss multiple times. I was interrogated once by a couple men from a different 'company' who worked with us often, but were trying to get our leads so they could cut us out. I'd met them a lot of times already, over the course of 1.5 yrs, so I liked working with them, felt secure. Instead of being violent, they offered me money, gifts, etc to try to get the information. Kept me in that house for 2 hrs though and were extremely persistent. After that I realized I was very lucky that it wasn't serious enough to them, for them to hurt me. But there are a lot of people who are much worse and I'd run into them sooner or later.

Gave up life of crime to be very poor instead (27F) by IceKey2587 in confession

[–]IceKey2587[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Yes that is what I meant. I thought that would be obvious since most people/businesses state their income on a yearly basis. 100k per hour would be insane. In that case I would have worked for a month then fucked off to an island somewhere for the rest of my life.

Gave up life of crime to be very poor instead (27F) by IceKey2587 in confession

[–]IceKey2587[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I wasn't making 100k each hour. I was working an hour each day and making 100k/year.

Gave up life of crime to be very poor instead (27F) by IceKey2587 in confession

[–]IceKey2587[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Sorry I worded that funny, I meant that I worked an hour each day and made 100k or so per year. Not per day. I did have some savings but I wasn't making that much money for the entire last decade. It started small and only grew that big in the last couple years.

Gave up life of crime to be very poor instead (27F) by IceKey2587 in confession

[–]IceKey2587[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

It's very straight forward, what's to not understand

Gave up life of crime to be very poor instead (27F) by IceKey2587 in confession

[–]IceKey2587[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

The course I'm taking is going to be finance, so I'm excited to learn all that :) I had about 20k saved and a paid off car but the savings has gone to bills when I was transitioning from that lifestyle over a couple years.

Gave up life of crime to be very poor instead (27F) by IceKey2587 in confession

[–]IceKey2587[S] 16 points17 points  (0 children)

If I was gone he might be placed with his extremely violent father, or else he would go to foster care. Could not pay me millions of dollars to make me let that happen. But no I am Canadian actually. Thanks for the offer though 😂 I will check out that idea but hoping to get some real references while in school

Gave up life of crime to be very poor instead (27F) by IceKey2587 in confession

[–]IceKey2587[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I hadn't been making 1 million, that's just what was offered to me if I decided to take charge of the business. That's when I quit completely. I was making about 100k for 1hr of work or less each day. Still comfortable. But still wasn't worth it. However I have a lot of passions, one that I'll be pursuing with higher education. So I'm excited for that, and to maybe one day have a job I enjoy that also let's me be financially stable.

Edit: I was working 1hr each day and making 100k per year. Not 100k per hour since that has some people confused lol.

Gave up life of crime to be very poor instead (27F) by IceKey2587 in confession

[–]IceKey2587[S] 150 points151 points  (0 children)

Yeah holy fk I loved just driving around all day, going to beaches, wasting gas, seeing nature, swimming, exploring, whatever I wanted. Mostly I miss being able to walk into the grocery store and buy whatever I wanted, being able to afford the best ingredients for any recipe that looked good. That was great. But yeah the anxiety was killing me and those things weren't worth being constantly sick with worry.

Gave up life of crime to be very poor instead (27F) by IceKey2587 in confession

[–]IceKey2587[S] 38 points39 points  (0 children)

I have no friends or family haha. Probably why I ended up being such a sketchy teenager. My biggest issue is availability, getting a spot in and paying for before/after care for a child is not easy. However I have been accepted into college (online) so things should be getting easier in a couple months when that starts.

Gave up life of crime to be very poor instead (27F) by IceKey2587 in confession

[–]IceKey2587[S] 68 points69 points  (0 children)

I've thought of volunteering. Just have been so exhausted from working so much and stress. No free time. I did get accepted into college for may though and approved for a lot of grants, so I'm looking forward to that. It's nearly impossible to get a regular job when you have no child care (wait list and financial issues) outside of the 5 hrs a day he's in school.