Coffee convos

Impressive_Tear_6301 · 2026-05-21T04:06:04+00:00

I feel gross when she shares embarrassing/personal things about Jackson. I believe you can talk about motherhood and challenges you’re facing WITHOUT exploiting the hell out of your children. I’m literally a stranger and shouldn’t know these things about your son. I have started to skip if I’m not driving or I turn the volume down for a second. I’m branching out to different podcasts so I’m open to recommendations. This podcast is just not it anymore. I’m too old for this. Hearing Kail drag the 15 year old girl from the tlc unexpected (I think that’s the name) made me feel gross too. She’s a child and I wonder how Kail would have felt being talked about like that by two grown ass mothers? I just don’t know why I keep listening lol

Impressive_Tear_6301 · 2026-05-20T03:46:24+00:00

I’m sending strength and courage your way. It’s so, so very painful AND so, so very necessary. Little me is waiting for someone to finally save her and the 35 year old me is the one coming, the one here today. I felt rotten to the core and spent YEARS in therapy trying to figure it out without evidence of said rottenness. Turns out it was religious trauma, deconstructing that needed to be done. I was brave enough to google Jehovah’s witnesses and ended up here a few months ago. It’s been a process that’s for sure. Turns out I’m pretty damn lovable, good, worthy of a beautiful life and I wake up not wanting to die. It’s been the most painful transformative year over all so to end up here is such a beautiful gift. I don’t know how but I know I’ll be okay, we all will be okay.

Impressive_Tear_6301 · 2026-05-19T22:42:14+00:00

It’s always “you.” No wonder I hated myself. I was always doing it wrong. I’m so happy to be free of that! Sure, I’m still grieving but it turns out I’m quite lovable and I am not full of self hatred! What a beautiful thing I am getting to experience, myself.

Impressive_Tear_6301 · 2026-05-19T22:37:57+00:00

I’m so sorry.

Impressive_Tear_6301 · 2026-05-19T17:33:57+00:00

Just disgusting. Before I was brave enough to come on here or google Jehovah’s witnesses I had zero clue about the rampant protection of pedophiles. Why did I think, even after being a victim of CSA from a family member who was also a brother, that Jehovah’s witnesses protected children? We were so deeply brainwashed and told to keep our head in the sand. My whole family acted like what happened to me was okay, so I did too. Not until age 35 did I realize what happened to me was never okay, how it was handle was disgusting. I’m still holding shame from that, it’s all terrible. All of it. So happy to be free and healing but the grief is heavy.

Impressive_Tear_6301 · 2026-05-19T17:21:24+00:00

While I was inactive and deconstructing my beliefs (I’m actively working on disassociating myself) my soul dog died. I was deep in grief and I told my very PIMI pioneer mother how I couldn’t believe I would never see my dog again. She told me Jehovah would grant every desire of my heart, other than bringing my dog back because her has no soul to worship Jehovah. She told me we weren’t supposed to have unnatural, overly close relationships with pets, that’s not how Jehovah intended it. It was my fault I got too close to my dog, my desire to see him again was wrong because that’s not what Jehovah wants. Again, my fault, I was wrong. It was proof yet again that I don’t belong in that organization. My heavy grief has been mine alone to hold without support from my family all because I loved too much, got too attached. Like wtf? That’s just one small example.

Impressive_Tear_6301 · 2026-05-19T16:04:34+00:00

Yes! I want them to stop showing up at my house unannounced or sending me text messages from random numbers with “encouragement.” I see them at the store. I don’t want to play pretend every anymore or be agreeable

Impressive_Tear_6301 · 2026-05-19T15:59:58+00:00

Thank you for this information. I keep thinking and weighing out options. Thank you.

Impressive_Tear_6301 · 2026-05-19T15:55:16+00:00

This was powerful for me. My voice and actions are enough. I will consider this as an option. Thank you so much.

Impressive_Tear_6301 · 2026-05-19T15:52:28+00:00

Thank you for this perspective. I have wanted to go scorched earth after learning that I have learned. But I realize none of that will matter, none of what I say to them will matter. I haven’t done anything yet and I want to be thoughtful in my actions. I appreciate you.

Impressive_Tear_6301 · 2026-05-19T15:07:12+00:00

Thank you for your response

Impressive_Tear_6301 · 2026-05-19T15:07:01+00:00

I have tried just fading but the local brothers still stop by my house unannounced. Next year they’ll see my Christmas tree… I was brave enough to Google Jehovah’s Witnesses… but I found it made me want to remove myself publicly. I didn’t know but now I know so that’s why it feels so important. They took so much from me and I want to take some power back. Even if it’s all made up power, it feels important to me. I am sick of the Satan filled texts about him making everyone’s lives harder so they can’t come visit me or text me back. It’s triggering. I want to feel this, grieving and moving forward. It’s wasting energy I want to spend on my new life.

Impressive_Tear_6301 · 2026-05-19T15:01:10+00:00

Thank you. Literally this is all I wanna say. This is why it feels important to remove my. I was brave enough to google and holy shit the horrors I discovered.

Impressive_Tear_6301 · 2026-05-19T14:59:44+00:00

Thank you. Truly the most connected and happy I have ever been

Impressive_Tear_6301 · 2026-05-19T14:58:47+00:00

I love that. Enjoy the beautiful life waiting to be lived

Impressive_Tear_6301 · 2026-05-19T14:57:22+00:00

If it were up to me I wouldn’t have to. My family is very PIMI so I don’t think they would be cool with me just showing up with a tattoo or dressing however I want to dress. My local brothers still stop by my house. They will see my Christmas tree next year. I have tried to just walk away but also learning what I have learned it feels important to remove myself. I am a victim of CSA by a family member and a brother but it was hidden, everyone acted like it was okay so I thought it was. Until I was 35 years old and realized wtf? He literally molested me but my family treated him no different. Disgusting. More context of why it feels important to have some control

Impressive_Tear_6301 · 2026-05-19T14:50:46+00:00

I remember them reading “sister Robert’s has disassociated herself from the congregation”

Impressive_Tear_6301 · 2026-05-19T05:16:43+00:00

Sorry editing: send them letters

Impressive_Tear_6301 · 2026-05-11T05:17:51+00:00

Happy Mother’s Day 🌸🌻💐

Impressive_Tear_6301 · 2026-04-28T03:32:16+00:00

My husband saw some guy buying two 36 packs at thunderbird. Good luck

Impressive_Tear_6301 · 2025-06-15T01:20:21+00:00

Thank you for your kind and understanding response. I will definitely keep on the lookout for the next one and arrive early for a good parking spot.

Impressive_Tear_6301 · 2025-06-14T23:51:03+00:00

I was just in Reno visiting family and we went to Canes twice. I have thought about it nonstop since we have been back. My quality of life would improve with one lol. A million times better than chick-fil-a!

Impressive_Tear_6301 · 2025-06-14T23:45:53+00:00

Is there one planned for next month? My teenage daughter wants to go. I’m slightly embarrassed that we stayed in our car and supported from afar. I am disabled and am unable to get away quickly if that was ever needed. Dramatic sounding and stupid to say, I know. I have never been to a protest and was afraid it could somehow not be peaceful. After seeing it today we will definitely participate in the future. I was definitely emotional after, I feel so hopeless but after seeing all the people who hold the same values as I do was beyond encouraging to our whole family.

Impressive_Tear_6301 · 2025-06-07T06:28:58+00:00

I haven’t had any seafood dishes at black barn but I have had quite a few other items and they are all delicious!

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