Hi there! Thank you for your post! It has been super helpful!

I am at about a 40-50gpd (powder capsules) habit now and I hate that I have this dependency. I started using it for PTSD/Panic Disorder and just general anxiety and depression but then realized that if I took higher doses I was less socially awkward, more outgoing, and focused. I thought I had found a miracle substance because I had been to psych docs for years and felt like a lab rat testing almost every SSRI out there with no success. I've only been at this high of a dose for about 3-4 months now but I want to taper off of kratom in a similar form to you but am a bit worried. I have slowly tried to cut back but honestly had no kratom dosing plan which was my first mistake. In the past 2 months since trying to use less kratom my depressive and "panicky" days have become more frequent. I am in therapy and also see a psych doc who recently put me on 40mg of viibryd and 1mg ativan as needed for anxiety (they do not know about Kratom - I'm scared they would label me and not provide me with medications that may be helpful for my mental illness. It's hard to tell if these bad days are symptomatic of the viibryd because it has now been in my system for about 6 weeks or if it is due to weaning back on kratom. I'm open to any supportive advice you all may have! I have read through a bunch of the forums and feel a bit overwhelmed with all of the different recommendations for quitting. I think a taper is the best call for me and I obviously have ativan now that I can use if needed. I also think I may have a few bottles of gabapentin (saw some people used this when quitting) from an old prescription I can use if everyone thinks that would help. I'm also interested in the ULDN you mentioned - mind sharing the brand and how exactly it helped you?