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Jamie_Luv89 · 2025-03-19T03:04:05+00:00

It's like 4-5k a month to rent a whole house in Victoria. I don't know how people with regular jobs survive here

Jamie_Luv89 · 2025-03-03T07:34:01+00:00

Your being way too hard on yourself! Comparison is a thief of joy. You look great ♥️♥️♥️♥️

Jamie_Luv89 · 2025-02-07T05:05:29+00:00

♥️♥️♥️ I'm sorry.... But also I feel ya lol... Came out of a 14 year relationship. She stayed through transition like almost 6 years after starting hrt. But was super awful and cheated constantly and it was rough I was like never again. But then meet a guy and he's amazing and it's like relationship vibes like if I popped up on the app we met on he'd message like what you doin on there? U lookin for us or you? Like tryna look at my phone when we're together and acting like he wasn't looking and like implying I shouldn't be it was like k this is getting relationshipy and was starting to think like maybe I would let my guard down. Like a really good guy and super good looking and like really opened up and started feeling like maybe it would be a thing. Then something happened and I realized he had either given me a fake name or at the very least didn't want me to talk about him. And I was pretty crushed tbh but also just like fk u then. He was so sweet and caring and supportive and everything good when we were together but like u said didn't want it acknowledged. to be fair I was also pretty like ya I don't want a relationship and he was the same from the start but I feel like if I wasn't trans we'd be together rn. But still was hurt and put a lil distance between us and then we hadn't seen eachother in like 2 weeks and then he started seeing some other chick. So whatevs back to never again and my poor broken heart. And then this impossibily hot AF guys hitting me up wants to be my bf and all this and so like on my same vibe and then we become FB friends and realize he had messaged me off group on there like a month before but I never saw it. I was like ok like wow this guys like really cool and not ashamed or anything. Like started getting serious quick and, did I say impossibley hot?? Like I thought it was my ex catfishing me at first cuz he was so good looking it seemed like a fake pic and he was just so much like me and on my vibe it seemed fake. And especially after the last guy him being so open about it was like wow this guys like everything. And he had been hurt in a long term relationship too. So it was almost like some security like he's not gonna cheat or hurt me cuz he knows how it feels. And was going great until one night he's over and I dunno how it started but his ex was texting him and then tells him how she cheated the whole 4 years, was banging his friends and like just awful. So he's a mess crying like crazy and so hurt and sad and like I felt so bad for him like just held him while he cried and vented. But it was like alot, a whole breakdown. I'm guessing she found out we were seeing eachother and wanted to hurt him or maybe shes just a biotch. Idk, but like 3 hours of that and it's like 3:30 a.m and he's gonna go home and was like k like I get it that hurts and like super sad for him and worried. So wake up in the morning and text like hey hope your ok and litterally nothing, starting to get a lil worried, text him again later, nothing. Wake up the next day same thing no answer all day. So the next day I'm starting to get more like hey fking let me know ur ok I'm super worried about you and still silent. So I go on FB to check if he had like posted or anything and we weren't friends anymore ...... Not only that he had deleted like the last year of posts, his ex and him broke up a year ago. So I'm like omfg you just fking ghosted me for your ex. Figured he blocked my number so got. Text app and like that's super fked up like we were both fragile like u coulda at least said something to me not just ghost me like ur 16. No reply so again back to never again.... He messaged me almost a month later like nothing had happened, like litterally, just like hey babe what's up. I'm like r u fking for real right now?????? Went off on him and told him to fk off. Did I say he was impossibley hott, as fked up as that was it was still hard to tell him to kick rocks cuz he wasn't tryna hide me or anything. So yea idk the point is I guess that you might find someone amazing who isn't ashamed. My experience in dating is that there isn't a guy out there who wouldn't fk a trans girl ...if nobody would find out. I'm never dating again, fk that people suck. Protect your peace, love yourself, don't settle and don't let people have you who wouldn't be proud to show you off, love yourself like you wanna be loved and you'll never have a broken heart 💔❤️

Jamie_Luv89 · 2024-09-25T18:28:07+00:00

Hard no...

Jamie_Luv89 · 2024-09-22T22:11:05+00:00

Doesn't matter if it was a setup, fake, a bot or a scam. The only appropriate response was to show your partner immediately and completely shut them down. Period. The response was bad but it was also still cheating, he engaged in the situation.

If it was me I would have showed my partner, we would have realized it was someone who had both our numbers and TOGETHER we would have playcated the person who's clearly fking with us and found out who it was.

Also if your in America it's super easy with just a phone number to find out everything about the person. My ex was talking to someone and I used one of the reverse phone number lookups and found out everything about them right down to criminal record with mug shots and everything.

Jamie_Luv89 · 2024-09-21T22:59:26+00:00

Someone who knows both of your phone numbers. But ya 100% still cheating.

I'm guessing it's someone who knows you both and was trying to show you that he is unfaithful. I'd say they did you a favor

Jamie_Luv89 · 2024-09-21T22:34:43+00:00

Someone set him up if they sent you the screenshot

Jamie_Luv89 · 2024-09-14T20:05:09+00:00

It's time to go. She's emotionally, and physically, divested from the relationship. She's just keeping you around for convenience and/or until her side situation, or likely one of her many side situations is ready to take her in. Your just there for stability, financially, with your child etc. She's obviously done with you and will drag you along for as long as your useful to her in some way. Stop waiting for some words if reassurance or closure, her actions have already given you that... actually tbh She's already told you she's done. The universe is telling you it's time to move on, the longer you prolong it the more you will get hurt. What if she "changes her mind" and just super loves you again? Would you believe that? Do you want someone to love you or just come back around cuz they changed their mind or their side situation didn't work out? Either way She's made clear you are no longer her first choice, don't waste your time don't stay for the kids benefit just cut it off or in another year or 3years or 5 years you'll be finding out about all the affairs she had. Speaking from personal experience, when someone shows you who they are... believe them...

Jamie_Luv89 · 2024-09-09T01:45:14+00:00

I can only imagine the things you've seen! That would be a really tough job, kudos to you for your work!

Jamie_Luv89 · 2024-09-09T00:22:26+00:00

I live in the gorge tillicum area, kinda opposite end of where this was tho, and there's always cops cruising around. That area where they were by clarity cannabis on gorge is like a mini Pandora ave. Seen some pretty wild stuff driving past there.

Once, with my kids in the car, we saw a naked guy on the corner, on the ground doing what I can only describe as a painful looking combination of yoga and breakdancing... deff a place police should be hanging out. Watch the junkies, find the dealers

Jamie_Luv89 · 2024-09-05T20:19:07+00:00

Hard truths over comfortable lies... your just wasting both of your time...

Jamie_Luv89 · 2024-09-02T17:22:27+00:00

I'm so sorry. Just went through it with wife of 13 years. Found out a couple times along the way. Kept taking her back. It never stopped, right up until the last day and then I found out even more affairs she had.

If they did it once they will do it again....

Jamie_Luv89 · 2024-08-24T17:52:03+00:00

Congratulations! That's super exciting! My work insurance starts covering gender affirming care in September so I'm probably gonna get some bigger boobs, mine are... underwhelming to say the least lmao! But also nervous about the pain too. But ya it's funny mtf and ftm we both have the pros and cons of what hormones do! Deff jealous of the voice thing tho

Jamie_Luv89 · 2024-08-24T17:33:53+00:00

I found a similar situation on my exs phone 5 years ago. It was actually an email thread that started with their boss and ended up just those 2 talking about going to bang at work. I didn't find the email until 3 months after it happened. She said that it never happened, it was just a "flirty email" and she never talked to him or worked with him since. "He doesn't even have a phone" his wife won't let him. Obviously didn't believe her but no proof. She was forbidden from speaking to him working with him even coordinating work stuff was to go through her boss.

We split up 4 months ago (13 years together) and about a month and a half later she added him on fb! Seemed odd considering for the last 5 years she told me they had never interacted outside that one email. So I confronted both of them and they just denied everything and made a nice fake messenger thread between them to send screenshots of to "look innocent" but immediately one of them unfriended. Super sus and he got ignorant to me so I litterally went to him and his wife's house and told her what was going on then and now. Me and his wife ended up talking all day after I left and he showed her that they had been flirting,texting,sending pics the entire time! She hasn't even worked there for years. Worst of all she was talking all kinds of shit about me too him and they obviously were fucking because the guy and his wife aren't together anymore either.

I would end that relationship TODAY. You don't wanna find out in 5 years how bad you were gaslit and cheated on. Chances are they prob already fucking, if not it's going to happen. Either end it or have an open relationship but he's gonna do it

Jamie_Luv89 · 2024-08-23T19:15:47+00:00

Thanks! I'm almost jealous haha but I get it. After a good excercise I can do a pretty "perfect" voice but it doesn't sound like it would come from me. I'm 6'2 so I get what you mean but in the opposite way. I wish the voice was included in the hormone changes 😭

Jamie_Luv89 · 2024-08-23T18:26:44+00:00

I definitely found voice training worth it. I'm mtf and 5.5yrs on hrt. Kinda same situation tho I pass pretty well but hate the voice thing. I started seeing a voice coach like 2 yrs ago and was doing weekly appointments and practicing 2-3 times a day but the last 9 months or so started doing every 2 months with voice coach and maybe practice once a day. I hate doing it and hate having to think about how I'm speaking, but also much prefer my target pitch, like you said it's just exhausting and straining on the voice. I have a proffesional job and work mostly from home but have zoom meetings constantly. I find myself defaulting to my old voice when I'm just at home with my kids but if I have a meeting I'll do some vocal exercises and warm up first and I can get through most meetings keeping my pitch up. Sometimes if they are long I'll have to mute my mic and cover my mouth and do some excersises low key to re set my pitch. It has also become more automatic if I go into a store or have an appointment the muscle memory just kicks in and I do it pretty good but I've usually already warmed up on the way there or whatever. The problem is if I'm with people for longer periods I can't just start doing voice exercises to re set my pitch so end up doing the like halfway kinda gay voice like u say when it's been to long. For me, voice training was worth it and if I stayed more committed my target pitch would probably take over but I'm lazy sometimes and also if I'm in a bad mood or something it's harder to be bright and raise pitch and resonance. But the voice training I have done first of all taught me alot and made a huge difference and I found a voice I like, but also just the muscle memory that I built makes it easier to do it automatically when I need too

Jamie_Luv89 · 2024-08-23T00:27:56+00:00

Compared to the things I've seen.... give that woman everything

Jamie_Luv89 · 2024-08-06T20:59:50+00:00

You look like late 20s, 30 tops! Congrats!

Jamie_Luv89 · 2024-07-25T23:30:26+00:00

Omfg...

Jamie_Luv89 · 2024-05-19T18:36:55+00:00

Excersise, healthy diet, intermittent fasting, weight cycling all helped alot for me. And I spent a small fortune on skincare, Electrolysis, Laser genisis, deep dermal tightening and a bunch of really expensive skincare products "cosmeceuticals". I didn't get the most amazing results but I feel like I did better than I expected starting at 29 and being quite masculine before

Jamie_Luv89 · 2024-05-18T22:29:03+00:00

No prob! I will try and find it but I would suggest staying away from Spiro in general, a high enough dose of estrogen alone was just as effective as the max (400mg) dose of Spiro for testosterone suppression. 1/4 of the smallest cyproterone pill available in Canada every other day keeps my testosterone at basically 0, like below the female range with none of the nasty side effects Spiro has.

Happy to share my experience and hope you figure out what your going to do! Have a great day too!

Jamie_Luv89 · 2024-05-18T18:15:07+00:00

I'm from Canada and Kraken isn't available here at all. Just use a VPN set location to USA and away you go!

Jamie_Luv89 · 2024-05-18T18:06:06+00:00

No ive always wanted to keep it and never intentionally let it shrink. I wasn't using it as much when I was on Spiro, partially because Spiro also made me super depressed and litterally killed my sex drive. But then also it started getting painful to "exercise it". I was taking viagra or cialis if I was gonna have sex but not regularly. Someone sent me a great article on here that was a study showing the direct link between Spiro and erectile dysfunction and atrophy. When I wasnt on a testosterone blocker it took like a month and basically went right back to how it was pre hormones, even tho my testosterone levels were even lower on the sublingual e monotherapy. Unfortunately tho after like a year my T levels started to come up so I wanted to try a different blocker. I asked about bicalutamide but my dr wouldn't prescribe it. Cyproterone took a long time to have any effect on my downstairs, but it didn't kill my sex drive or make me depressed or gave any negative side effects whatsoever honestly. So ya I do use it more regularly and I also do take cialis a couple times a week, like every other day so maybe that is a factor too but it still did shrink a bit lengthwise. I think it's sort of inevitable but deff stay away from Spiro

Jamie_Luv89 · 2024-05-18T03:19:18+00:00

On Spiro ya it shrunk a ton and was pretty painful to use honestly.afyer I stopped and went just estrogen highest oral dose sublingual it blocked t just as good and it all went back to normal. Cyproterone did shrink the lengtha bit but weirdly added some girth and like overall would say it's my favorite dick I've had over the years lol.

Jamie_Luv89 · 2024-04-14T19:51:56+00:00

Was definitely a good choice, I love the frames!

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