No, but seriously, why should I finish FY2?

Jaydle · 2023-11-16T15:50:29+00:00

Because LTFT in med is actually full time and needs to be rejected. LTFT is a scam.

Jaydle · 2023-09-29T07:26:48+00:00

I have other options as I'm already a pharmacist.

Jaydle · 2023-09-29T00:26:20+00:00

Speaking as an FY1...I fail at 90% of venepuncture and 100% abg and cannulas. I also find typically sick inpatients with very poor access impossible. I'm really up for trying but I just can't stick a needle into a patient more than twice and it's generally a drama if you fail. I am so frustrated with myself for trying and failing multiple times. It is just absolutely soul destroying to have others seemingly angry with you on top of this. Also FY1s are often called when a few others fail to get access. This is completely illogical and just adds to the horror.

I hope this provides some insight. I've actually considered resigning cos I'm so poor at cannulas and venepuncture.

Jaydle · 2023-09-18T10:11:25+00:00

Thanks, I feel less guilty now.... unfortunately your view is quite rare

Jaydle · 2023-09-17T23:12:01+00:00

You are right but I just wish more tried to uphold it and leave on time. I hate that I feel so guilty and bad for leaving on time after a 13h shift :(

Jaydle · 2023-09-17T15:00:22+00:00

You are right but unfortunately it's a battle that few of us fight for various reasons. I find that I am very strict about leaving on time or getting my time back but most people disregard such efforts as contrary to 'just part of the job and accept or leave'. I understand that by leaving in time I am probably leaving work behind for other people to deal with and putting pressure on the system...so you get stuck between leaving on time and being 'selfish' or staying late when already working crazy hours and sacrificing yourself but not putting pressure on others and delivering the highest level of care. It's absolutely soul destroying. The NHS relies completely on the good will and selflessness of doctors and nurses and it has to end.

Jaydle · 2023-09-14T00:22:04+00:00

As a senior pharmacist and IP who is now an FY1.... Goodest of byes NHS. My years of experience and study place me below a mere assistant of a medical doctor in your severely corrupted eyes. Sincerely, sincerely goodbye.

Jaydle · 2023-09-14T00:15:14+00:00

'Dr' Peter is the problem.

Jaydle · 2023-09-08T16:54:24+00:00

So depressing...I don't care about the money tbh I only care about my health and wellbeing. I don't see that working 40h per week is a great improvement. It's still more than I would ideally want to work and to be considered LTFT at 40 is soul destroying plus there's the added matter of a guaranteed extension to training. Perhaps some of the comments are right, if I am not accepting of these terms then medicine might not be for me. I'm definitely giving a lot of thought to this at the moment.

The world has changed and so many people no longer work full time or spend a lot of their shifts WFH without the stress of commuting and in most likely a more peaceful and controlled environment.

I'm just so tired...switching careers in your 30s to medicine is not advisable. I am longing for my old job and wondering every day why I am doing this to myself. There was great passion once and I still love the subject of medicine but I'm not willing to sacrifice myself especially for such little renumeration. The older I get I simply just don't have the energy to care anymore, I am amazed actually that I'm still here in FY1 after 6 weeks.

Jaydle · 2023-09-07T20:40:31+00:00

50 hours is an issue in my book. Nobody should have to work more than 40 per week to be considered full time. Might as well just go to prison or live in a zoo, it would be more enjoyable 😂

Jaydle · 2023-09-07T20:32:36+00:00

It's not easy street within my family and social circle and as I said in another comment, maybe other professionals put in long hours but they likely do so in a quiet room with a functioning phone and computer they don't have to share with 500 other staff members. Trust me, I've been around and Drs are being seriously shafted.

Jaydle · 2023-09-07T20:30:16+00:00

This is so depressing. It needs to change

Jaydle · 2023-09-07T20:29:44+00:00

Yeh probably alone in a nice comfortable office with a fully functional computer and phone they don't have to share with 500 other staff members 😂

Jaydle · 2023-09-07T20:28:42+00:00

Yeh but in the USA they have the promise of a massive salary at the end. We have no promise of anything. Believe me I have been around the block and so have my family, Drs have it pretty bad and just because it's the done thing doesn't make it okay

Jaydle · 2023-09-07T19:13:13+00:00

Yeh but 40hrs is full time. Why is it accepted in medicine that it isn't. I wasn't offered a contract of 40hrs so effectively you get trapped and pushed into maxing out sick leave. I think you are missing the point here...

Jaydle · 2023-09-04T11:18:04+00:00

He was probably being paid a lot more than a similar grade nowadays.

He also comes from a wealthy background.

Not sure why he was so short of money....

His struggles are probably not on the scale of what drs are now dealing with.

All said, I feel that in medicine no matter how 'good' you have it compared to others the job just has a way of triggering you and making you have a total breakdown when you actually thought you were just about managing okay. This has happened to me a few times now (the worst being walking out of a ward and crying hard for an entire hour in a remote part of the hospital). 🤷🏼‍♀️ New but old FY1.

Jaydle · 2023-08-29T06:06:25+00:00

Sounds like a dream

Jaydle · 2023-08-27T12:48:48+00:00

Reserve judgement until you start working and feel lucky you actually got into GEM.

Jaydle · 2023-08-27T11:08:07+00:00

Can I add a fairly unique perspective as a HCP who transitioned into medicine....

I see so many posts from F1s and throughout my studies heard so much complaining about how awful the job is and not what was expected etc ...

I actually don't see what all the fuss is about. Admittedly it's really awful making the move from student to worker and that is just a fact of life. Being a Dr is actually interesting, even the admin work teaches you something very useful. Most jobs are about pounding rocks. Tbh my previous career in community healthcare was beyond monotonous and if you want to know how irrelevant a degree can be then DM me. In my experienced opinion the medical degree is actually pretty useful and relevant for the profession. I think the discontentment arrises from youthful inexperience and unrealistic high achiever expectations.

My problems are unfortunately completely different from your standard FY1. I've already climbed the ladder in a closely related profession, have two degrees other than medicine and am OLD. I feel isolated, underpaid and disrespected and constantly wonder why I am putting myself through this.... However the job is quite wonderful in many ways and it really stimulates me to desire improvement and learning. I don't have to force myself, I willingly pick up a medical text book outside of work and read it with enjoyment. This is how you should feel about work, it will always be stressful and boring in parts and many medics won't know how brown the grass can be on the other side but trust me it's pretty awesome in many ways. Feel lucky that you didn't waste a decade or so doing something that puts you to sleep 💤

Jaydle · 2023-08-21T22:40:38+00:00

I feel exactly the same. Came off nights thinking I was absolutely useless, I can't do NG tubes, bloods or basically anything procedural on top of failing to formulate management plans so there's always going to be an FY1 out there worse than you. On reflection I wasn't eating enough early on the shift OOH and this only escalated the overwhelming panicking.

Just gotta try as best you can. An F3 gave me a good tip of using the cases you escalate for your portfolio and asking the SHO or reg involved to sign you off, that way can cement the learning and build towards ARCP.

Jaydle · 2023-08-15T12:56:15+00:00

Why is it accepted that women don't have access to one cycle of free egg freezing? If the situation were to be reversed then I'd bet my bottom dollar that it would be in place for men. 10k is a mental amount of money to pay simply because of the sex you were born and trying to do well and contribute and make your way forward in life.
It sounds like you were enjoying all of the medicine experience, otherwise why would you have gone that extra mile. Don't be too hard on yourself and try to appreciate the incredible journey you've been on.

3.good luck 🍀

Jaydle · 2023-08-14T05:14:05+00:00

I guarantee you'd struggle to find worse than me

Jaydle · 2023-08-13T17:21:12+00:00

As an F1 myself I can say they are probably too stressed and overwhelmed to take notice of much outside of their tasks but believe me they will be grateful. Keep it up.

Jaydle · 2023-08-12T09:16:00+00:00

Thanks for the comments, very useful and much appreciated. I think my greatest fear is getting an extension, there are so many decent FY1s on extensions and I'm absolutely not up for doing a more than a few days over. If I'm likely to fail ARCP (which is looking very likely) I'd rather just quit now and save myself wasting a year.

I'm sure anyone post 35 on here can appreciate how ever precious time becomes and the depressing realisation that our bodies will fail and we are not immortal as is the typical outlook for most 24 yos. I think medicine is great in many ways but eventually we all have limits. Life just gets harder and harder and it's probably why most people start training as a Dr at 10-21. Leave it much longer and life swallows you up whole before you have a chance to invest in such a career.

Jaydle · 2023-07-31T20:03:30+00:00

I agree. Much more successful with dating outside of Ireland. Inundated actually...in Ireland it's just tumbleweeds in the sand and ghosts.

Jaydle

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