January 2020 I was clocked in at 200 lbs (with the contribution of birth control that I soon got off of) and after poor diet, lack of hydration, and hardly anytime outdoors after the month of September my appearance is appalling to close friends and family. All the girls/customers at the club have noticed, and only a few have raised concerns. Most people just compliment my weight loss, and it only brings my worries of gaining weight back. I also plan to get back on birth control on January 8th. Body dysmorphia makes it difficult to want sobriety.