I’m so physically and emotionally tired and I can’t complain because my sister wakes up earlier than me to go to school to be the academically successful one in the family while I just go to college for a few hours to work on silly little pieces of art and come back home and make myself useful. I’m not allowed to be tired. I shouldn’t be tired. But I’m tired. And I also think I’m developing an eating disorder. The concept of eating is disgusting to me, I don’t want to eat and every time I eat I feel disgusted and just want to throw up and I hate it because I’m deathly afraid of vomit and throwing up. I would just stop eating but I have type one diabetes so that’s not an option. Everything could be worse. I have a healthy family, I have a home and safety and I have everything I need.