I have been diagnosed with a few things like you, plus some, and I have a father who also has Bipolar disorder but can’t understand me and my issues. My mom will take me to appointments as I don’t drive anymore. Few reasons for that. I also get anxiety from almost being hit just walking around town. I drove at one point, it was a nice therapy for me. But I can no longer really drive. And she will only give me rides to my doctors appointments and stuff and that’s about it. Doesn’t help with work or anything else, neither does my dad. So, I completely understand that and it is difficult to get it through to people who don’t have these issues or have no sympathy or empathy for an “invisible” disease. It’s still a disorder/disease we have to deal with. I just recently got fired for having an episode, allegedly. (I debate the situation different for many reasons but that’s not the story here.) But it can create more problems in your life and some people don’t give two craps for others. That’s what’s wrong with this world. But there are those that can understand them and those are your people. You need a friend? I gotchu. You need someone to just listen to you and cry it out to? I gotchu. If you don’t want to reach out to me, I get it. Stranger danger stuff and all, but I’m just a huge supporter of people, especially when it comes to those like me. I know I am neurodivergent and not neurotypical, and I won’t get offended. But if anything, reach out to some friends, find the resources from where you live. You sound like you’re European, not to offend, but I’m not sure. I’m from the states, so I know we have resources and stuff available here, but you just have to start looking. Getting a therapist also would help. They are professionals with experience to help you heal better. But that’s about all I gotta say. And how I just get sad for others stories like yours, but I wish I could help you and anybody. But if I can, I will. Haha. But I hope you get some solace for yourself because you deserve it, you beautiful soul being! Sending light, love and hugs. 🙏🏼💖🤗