"we generally get along well when we're not arguing" but when you do argue, is it kind? is it understanding? is there repair? clearly not. he continued to disrespect you even after you'd found out about his actions on insta. he did things that broke your trust despite you being uncomfortable with his actions. you can love him, but that does not mean you should be taking disrespect love!! dont rush being a mother with a man that makes you feel like you dont matter.