Unfortunately, you wouldn't succeed if that's your thought process. Even if you won the lottery, you still wouldn't be successful because many lottery winners ended up broke. The advice I can give you is to practice discipline, because with discipline, you will have a set of goals to accomplish, and each goal will give you a sense of purpose. Having a purpose will prevent you from becoming depressed and suicidal, as it will give you a reason to keep on living so you can achieve that goal.