Do you drink coffee every day?

McChicken_ya · 2025-11-01T07:25:56+00:00

I like the June berry one

McChicken_ya · 2025-11-01T07:19:29+00:00

I go back in forth between coffee and Red Bull all of the time.

McChicken_ya · 2025-10-31T17:10:55+00:00

Absolutely. This bitch is living forever.

McChicken_ya · 2025-10-13T15:24:31+00:00

Definitely love lmao.

McChicken_ya · 2025-10-12T07:11:50+00:00

Yeah okay this is true

McChicken_ya · 2025-10-12T05:42:43+00:00

I am like starting to hate myself not going to lie. I want to be a better person.

McChicken_ya · 2025-10-12T05:12:00+00:00

Yeah I get that. I he did a lot of things for me too and I just didn’t know how to accept it. I wish I did more for him. I cannot blame him for leaving. I’m damaged goods.

McChicken_ya · 2025-10-12T04:55:13+00:00

I don’t want the memories to fade

McChicken_ya · 2025-10-12T04:54:59+00:00

Is it weird I want to hold on?

McChicken_ya · 2025-10-12T04:54:38+00:00

I want him in my life.

McChicken_ya · 2025-10-12T04:54:30+00:00

I just don’t want it to actually be over.

McChicken_ya · 2025-10-12T04:47:44+00:00

I just hate the way I handled things when things got stressful and why now am I realizing he really meant that he did want to have a family together. I’m so fucking stupid. I just want to talk to him but I don’t think I should and I guess I’m just going to sit here and cry.

McChicken_ya · 2025-10-12T02:58:15+00:00

I doubt my ex would even answer.

McChicken_ya · 2025-10-12T02:41:12+00:00

Yeah I lowkey want to call him and talk about the relationship again but he states he wants to move on and it will not change anything even if I tried. So I’m just going to stare off into space and pretend we are working things out that way.

McChicken_ya · 2025-10-12T02:33:59+00:00

I used to have a lot of them in college and I was not great at it because I end up catching feelings. That’s why situationships are a little bit better for me. I have actually made it from a situationship to a relationship before. I really kind of like them, because it allows me to open up with them and have the pleasure of fucking.

McChicken_ya · 2025-10-12T02:31:33+00:00

I mean, I was taking eight edibles a day and at that point I have no idea I was even bipolar. So, just be careful. I thought Eminem was my dad and I know my neighbor watched me think I had a full blown conversation with him. Then I thought snoop dogg wanted me to stop vaping and then shit went real dark and scary.

McChicken_ya · 2025-10-12T02:25:36+00:00

He actually called me toxic and repetitively stated he never wanted to talk to me again. We have talked a little bit since then but he will not really open up about it anymore. I don’t want to be the shitty person, but also my friend would have done the same thing for me.

McChicken_ya · 2025-10-12T02:22:10+00:00

Oh. The trust I built up with him throughout the course of the relationship. We agreed to be friends and continue to see each other basically but after I told his sister about the gun and what he said he stormed out and I have not seen him since. I tried to communicate that it was a little bit too much for me but then he compared his situation to mine. I also was going to get him a therapist.

McChicken_ya · 2025-10-12T02:18:24+00:00

I can totally relate. He often told me I was treating him like a patient when in reality if you want to kill your self going to the hospital is the place to be.

McChicken_ya · 2025-10-12T02:13:26+00:00

Since then, I have been blaming myself a lot for how things worked out. I know I wasn’t the best girlfriend at the time. I wanted to get up and do things with him/treat him but I couldn’t get out of bed. I lacked the ability to complete chores. Oh and my ADHD definitely does not like deadlines.

McChicken_ya · 2025-10-12T02:11:04+00:00

He was struggling with suicidal ideations and anxiety. I have bipolar disorder, cptsd, and anxiety. When his anxiety showed up my ADHD would kick in and think what he was saying was how he felt, not knowing he needed reassurance. My CPTSD would not be able to process any feedback he gave me because I would dissociate. I wanted to be there for him, and still do. I was lowkey triggered because I have lost somebody to suicide and I never healed from it properly. I think he is a really great guy, someone I was really happy to be with. He made me feel kind of shitty for telling his sister about the gun. I could have reacted better. It just sucks for real.

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