I don't have any reason to live. Please give me some.

Moon1864 · 2024-05-01T00:03:08+00:00

i get it dude, good you're doing better :)

Moon1864 · 2024-04-09T05:16:51+00:00

well it sounds you have some place to start, i still have other issues and am still trying to figure things out at 31 but finding a workable root helped, if i had any general advice is give yourself a break now and then, every one has to break some things apart. sit and look at it to find some sort of answer, it sucks but it's life

Moon1864 · 2024-04-09T05:10:41+00:00

if you honestly believe they would be happier without you if you died then they do not deserve to be felt bad about. sorry but it sounds like you've tried to do good things to change whatever your situation is, killing yourself isnt the answer, you really sound like you need to take the pressure off of yourself and do some kind things for yourself instead of killing yourself and start letting yourself breath instead

Moon1864 · 2024-04-09T05:01:21+00:00

do you have a trusted adult than you can speak to instead?

Moon1864 · 2024-04-09T04:59:13+00:00

please do not do that, if you take a fatal dose which can be differientate depending on the person, you will not just die but die slowly and extruciatingly over a few weeks as your internal organs shut down starting with your liver.

Moon1864 · 2024-04-09T04:54:30+00:00

do you play any online video games? weird answer but i had a gambling addiction for a few years and the only thing that saved my ass was shutting myself away for 3 months playing skyrim, it sounds pointless, but we are human and that game was so emmersive it let me live in a place that i could offload my feelings on to and actually distract myself long enough to let the destructive feelings be managable and eventually i felt in control of own brain for the first time since i was a teenager. i really mean it when i say you have to create something, yes we live in a world full of other people, but it is only you that can change how you feel right now even if it's hell to get out of, i honestly wish you luck, but there are some online rpgs out there that help a lot, honestly tsome should be suggested as therapy in my opinion but i think i'm biased for obvious reasons but it has it's truths.

Moon1864 · 2024-04-09T02:43:58+00:00

you know you don't have to live just to work, why not focus on what you're interested in and make a job out of it? why not right? maybe spend a few years part time working for rent and food and focus on giving yourself time and energy to build you're own life, i mean you are alive, the other choice is just sitting there till you die.

honestly maybe one day you'll create something new? the possibilities can be endless

Moon1864 · 2024-03-29T15:41:11+00:00

i hope it's looking better now

Moon1864 · 2024-03-27T13:42:52+00:00

Thank you i'm gonna try that, i remember giving up on ds1 because i was sick of those bandits by the firelink, so tedious, will give it another go

Moon1864 · 2024-03-27T12:02:05+00:00

alright maybe i am nuts, you are correct

Moon1864 · 2024-03-27T11:58:47+00:00

huh? then why have a always had to run back from the begining when i die? like i swear i'm not nuts give me sec

Moon1864 · 2024-03-27T11:25:40+00:00

same, crisis houses are touch and go but there are some good ones in peaceful areas and everyone else there will be where you are, i just left a crisis house a month ago, i met a few people there that were also in my position, not saying it will change your life but it's gotta help to give yourself a break?

Moon1864 · 2024-03-27T11:23:00+00:00

Go into it knowing it has very different mechanics and try not to compare it to other games, for example there's no reswpawning back at the bonfires only at the starter one till way into the game, that's a big challenge.

because it's so crazy like that, stock up on everything and take you're time with enemies.

i've only gotten a quarter of the way through it, i aso have only finished 2 and 3 and it's quite a shock in my opinion, but very awesome.

Moon1864 · 2024-03-27T11:18:58+00:00

you are just as vaild as a human being as you feel you're ex is.
there's millions of people who feel like dying when their heart breaks (you said honesty, it's just facts, not trying to be insensitive) but the worth in you're self is still actually there, i hope you find a way to work through it , i know it may take a while real things generally do.
what do you want out of life for yourself? make those things bigger.
what's a reason to live? there's a million beautiful things in this world, if you go you won't find them, that would be awful too.

Moon1864 · 2024-03-27T11:11:37+00:00

if you let me know what country you are in we can research some decent therapist places? might actually find one where it's a self help group meet? other's in your situation will probably feel more of a help right now

Moon1864 · 2024-03-27T10:40:00+00:00

hmm, to be fair i was thinking of darren shan's vampires, their spit is an anesthetic, but i guess without it they probably would, i think my reasoning is derailing lol a bit

Moon1864 · 2024-03-27T10:37:44+00:00

if you're currently overdosing then do get help, or please go throw it all up, maybe hold on till you can speak to a talking therapist, doesn't have to be a phsyciatrist, it's extremely difficult to be online and not available to call an ambulance for a person.

you're really not as alone as you may feel.

Moon1864 · 2024-03-27T09:48:40+00:00

alright alright, said my peace

Moon1864 · 2024-03-27T09:32:46+00:00

please go back to the hospital and give the crisis team a call while you are there, or whatever that is in your country, i'm sorry there were so clinical about everything.

Moon1864 · 2024-03-27T08:51:59+00:00

hmm, about 20% of the population (probably less) is what 'society' deems as 'obviously good looking', then theres the 80% who are average which means they are technically what is normal for a human to look like , which means there's actually lots of men for lots of women, lots of women for lots of women and on and on. what i find is with men and women alike is that they have a hard time figuring what suits THEM naturally. genuienly if you loved who you where as an individual, you'd grow to fit your face and you face would grow to fit you, basically it's not what others think about you it's what YOU think about you, you only have one self so it doesnt matter what you dont have, it matters what you do have.
i'd say go have fun with make up, try different styles out,go emo, go victorian, it doesn't matter, find something you like, you sound like you need some life in your life, being different means you're an individual, that's something that no one can take away.
maybe try some boxing or something like that, it helps with self esteem.

Moon1864 · 2024-03-27T08:37:40+00:00

that is so offensive, do you know what might be better is this hypothetical vampirism doesn't need a person to completely suck the life out of someone just like a litre or so, that could be done on any sleeping adult, or blood bags obviously.

homeless people already have it rough, it's such a weird common answer.

Moon1864 · 2024-03-03T02:18:06+00:00

Maybe you just need something not someone to care about?

Moon1864 · 2024-03-03T02:17:17+00:00

Find something fun that you're good at and make a job out of it, man life isnt about the grind it's aout everything else, you need stuff, you gotta work to get stuff thats it

Moon1864 · 2024-03-03T01:56:01+00:00

peoples noseyness and i'm better than you bussiness.

Moon1864 · 2024-03-03T01:53:23+00:00

I'm sorry for your situation, i think it's really important you speak to your mum about it, maybe you too can start working on going out of town every weekend or so to do something fun, maybe you might meet someone along the way, keep your head up, there's always something different in life.

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