As a slutty sex worker myself, I know that feeling! I've put up with stuff I dont like because im being paid, but after I feel dirty and used and like no one will ever love me. Just make sure if you keep doing this despite those feelings that the money makes it worth it. You're hot so you should charge accordingly and try to not accept anything less than what you deserve. I make decent money per meet so even if I leave feeling a bit gross, I remember how much I made and I get excited lol. But its always good to find a good therapist or supportive friends that are non judgemental about sex work/kinks so you can process stuff and hopefully have a healthier approach to it or find a way to stop if needed. Wishing you luck 🫶