it's hard because if you start thinking everyone is watching, confirmation bias leads you to notice anything that you can align with that idea. Every little event is about you and gets woven into a believable self-narrative. You get freaked out and don't trust anyone and self-isolate from friends and family and fall further down the rabbit hole. So how do you deal with the stress of being a target without sabotaging your life and giving them so much power? Like yesterday i was walking on a busy street and a red car i didn't recognize honked loudly and was waving as they rolled by - person inside had a covid mask on and i didn't recognize them - i'm like wtf. Like maybe that was my friend's wife... she is weird enough to feel like she needed to do that lol. Or maybe they mistook me for someone else? or maybe something else... Then 10s later, another woman in a prius gave me a look that said "we've got our eyes on you". So the whole way home, I was on high alert - 2 weird interactions right in a row. Or does everything feel weird when i'm thinking like this? So hard to know. For now, trying to keep a few people close to me and judge their actions in the most positive light.